The Tour

03

"Thank you Texas see you soon!" I shouted as I walked off stage and made my way to my dressing room.

To say the last few days of tour had been awkward was an understatement. I'd barely spoke to any of the boys and had been pretty isolated from the crew as well as if they'd all taken Luke's side and I was now a spare part to the tour.

"Hey you." I heard a familiar voice say as I span around on my heels seeing Michael stood there with open arms "you did great tonight I was watching from the side of the stage" he said as I hugged him tight

"I assumed you were all on a speaking ban" I replied as he shook his head

"God no I'm sorry you got that impression we have just been super busy in between shows writing some stuff" he replied as I nodded

"The breakup given you all some new material?" I joked as he awkwardly scratched his neck "you're joking?" I said as my face dropped "breakup songs already?"

"Luke is clearly inspired" he replied as I shook my head "we've got to take advantage of it Nicky he barely writes with us anymore so when he wants to we just yanno let him"

"I get that but it's at my expense Michael" I replied as he nodded "If a song from his point of view is released it makes me look like the bad guy and him the good guy"

"Trust me the way he's been writing recently you can't really tell who is in the right or wrong....not that you were in the wrong anyway"

"Thanks Michael" I said awkwardly

"Look I've got to go but don't stress it's fine, watch some of the show tonight please will be nice to see your smile again while we play" he said walking off as I nodded in response before finally making my way back to my dressing room.

The idea of writing new music had popped into my head multiple times since we broke up but I just know for me it would all be way too raw and I'd end up producing something that would be awful. I couldn't believe he had already started using our breakup to create his next hit which would probably slander me and make him look like a saint.

I wouldn't worry as much if most of my fans didn't over lap with his own. I have most of my career to thank 5sos for without Luke and the boys promoting me to the gods when we first all met I may never of had the projection into the industry that I did.

As I entered my dressing room I quickly sat down on the leather sofa and wrapped myself in my grey blanket that smelt like my room from home. Mine and Luke's house. The house that after tour we will have to return to together to sort our things out and finally go our separate ways. I quickly ran away from my thoughts when I saw my phone light up with a call from my best friend.

"Kensie?" I spoke confused as to why she was calling

"Nicky! I watched a live stream online you looked unreal everyone online is praising you so highly they've all moved on from the Luke rumours" she explained as I sighed in relief

"That's a good sign thank goodness. I can't deal with anymore rumours. I am going to speak to Luke tomorrow about putting up a statement or something. No slander towards one another just explain that it is mutual. A little lie never hurt anyone" I explained as I heard her humming in response

"You're a better person than me Nicky I'd run his name through the mud" she replied as I laughed

"I know you would Kens. I'm going to watch them play tonight. I've not done that in a while"

"Just make sure Luke knows you're not doing it for him. Don't give him any ideas that you're still there for him you've stayed on the tour for you Nicky not him!"

"I know I know, speaking of I've got to go he's at my door ... bye" I replied seeing Luke stood grinning ear to ear at my door

"You look really gorgeous tonight Nicky" he smiled as I rolled my eyes "cuddle?" He asked as I shook my head

"Go away Luke I'm trying to chill out"

"Chill out before you come watch us perform? A little birdie told me you'd accepted an invite to the side stage" he tormented as I nodded and he walked over to me "well don't be late to stage babe you've got a hell of a show to watch and if you're lucky you can come to the after party later" he said before kissing my forehead and leaving swiftly after.

I can't help but get butterflies from the kiss and the way he speaks to me. This man has a hold on me that I need to just shake off as quickly as possible or I'll never get over him.

"2 mins till show" called over the speaker distracting me from my butterflies and instantly caused me to get up off the seat and make my way to the stage.

I arrive just in time for the first song and smile seeing the fans scream for the 4 boys they adore. A few songs pass and suddenly there is a break in the songs which usually doesn't exist and Luke makes a quick glance at me grinning before speaking into his microphone.

"If it's okay with you guys we'd like to play a new unreleased song" the crowd screams and my heart drops. He's not doing he can't be doing this. He looks at me again and smiles

"This one's called not in the same way. Enjoy!"