Big Time Hangout

Part 12

I smiled at him and put my arms around him, "I would love that."

He was standing there holding me and kissed me on the head. I started to feel really guilty about what I was doing and pulled away. I faked a smiled, "You should get ready for the concert. We don't want to be late."

He smiled at me and about the time he closed the door there was a knock at the main door. I went over to it and opened it to see Logan standing there smiling. He didn't say a word but reached over and stroked my cheek and turned going back to his room.

I closed the door behind him and said to Katie, "I don't think I can do..." there was a tap on the door between James and our room.

I rolled my eyes, "Katie I can't do this." I said.

She smiled at me and nudged me toward the door, "It's the only way if you really want to date one of them."

I opened the door, and James was standing there smiling at me, "How about a good luck kiss?" he asked and before I could say anything he leaned over kissing me.

He pulled away, "I can't wait to be able to spend some time with you. I'm so glad you chose me." and he kissed me on the cheek before turning and closing the door behind him.

I turned to Katie, "No seriously. I don't think I can do this." and I started to cry.

The phone rang and Katie grabbed it, "Yeah that's cool. Come on over." and hung it up walking over to me, "Sis get a hold of yourself. That was Carlos wanting to see you."

I rolled my eyes while trying to dry my tears when there was a knock at the door. Katie opened it letting Carlos in. He saw that I had been crying and rushed over to me, "What is it baby?"

I looked at Katie and then back at Carlos, "Nothing really. I just wish we didn't have to keep this a secret is all."

I wasn't completely lying but not telling him the whole truth was just as bad in my eyes. I turned to him, "Did you want something?"

He put his arms around me holding me, "I just wanted to see you." and he just sat there holding me for a minute before Katie reminded him that we had a concert to get to. He kissed me on the cheek and disappeared out the door.

I started to cry again, "Katie I just don't see how this is going to work. I feel so horrible. I would never normally do something like this."

She put her arm around me, "I know sis but look at what has already happened. We spent a whole day with no fighting and nobody trying to win your attention. Haven't you enjoyed that?"

I smiled through the tears, "I guess your right and after the concert tonight we will go home, and things will get easier. They will forget about me once I'm not right in front of them and it will be easier to see which one of them is being honest about their feelings."

She jumped up, "We should really get dressed. We have a concert to go to." she smiled.

We got dressed and I tried to put things out of my mind and enjoy the last night I had with the guys as much as I could. We got to the concert and watched from backstage. I had to admit I felt a little jealousy when they brought the cover girl on stage. When Kendall started singing to her my first thought was to run over there and make a scene, but I had to regain my composure.

I turned to Katie, "I knew I couldn't handle this. I can't handle the girls being all over them. I have never been a jealous person, but this is almost more than I can handle."

She smiled at me, "Is it just Kendall that it bothers you with?"

I looked at her puzzled, "I really don't know." I stated.