Big Time Hangout

Part 22

I stood up and put my arms around him, "I do love you Kendall. I love all of you in a different way which makes this so hard for me. I had made up my mind before all of this started but now I just don't know."

He hugged me back, "Oh (yn) just knowing that you do love me makes everything okay. Even if we are never together I have that at least."

He started out the door and I requested, "Can you ask Logan to come up please."

I laid back down on the bed and Logan walked in, "That is the most beautiful sight I have ever seen." he said looking at me and David laying there.

I started to get up, but he stopped me, "Don't get up. I love the sight of you and my son together." and he came and sat next to me, "Kendall said you wanted to see me?"

I sat up slightly, "Logan I just don't know how to handle all of this. I mean all the hate. What is going to happen if I move in with you? Its only going to get worse."

He hung his head slightly, "I can understand your reservation, but I can promise you that I would never let anything happen to either of you." He paused, "Don't let this influence your decision. I really want you and David with me all the time. I never want to miss a thing."

I hesitated and said, "Logan I have to tell you something."

He looked at me questioningly and I continued, "I told Kendall I loved him..."

Logan didn't let me finish but threw his arms around me, "I'm so glad you made your decision. I'm so happy for you."

I could feel from his embrace that he truly was happy for me which left me so confused I wasn't sure what to think. I pulled away, "So you're not jealous?"

He looked at David then back at me, "I guess I'm not. I just want you to be as happy as you made me."

He could see the confusion in my eyes, and he chuckled, "I know it's kind of strange huh?"

I laughed, "Well compared to the Logan I have known all this time, yeah it is."

He smiled at me, "I told you I'm not like that. I don't know what came over me."

I paused, "But Logan I haven't made my decision. I did tell Kendall I loved him but what I told him was that I love all of you in a different way. That's what makes this so hard. I don't know what I'm going to do."

Logan smiled at me, "Can I give you one piece of advice?"

I rolled my eyes, "You're going to say to just pick you aren't you."

He laughed, "Not at all. I'm going to tell you to go with your heart. Take your time and be strong when you make your decision. We will all be right here with you no matter what." He leaned in and kissed me lightly on the lips and added, "I love you and our family. We will always be connected, and nobody will ever take that away from us." and he got up heading for the door.

I sat there dumbfounded; I don't know where this Logan came from, but I have to admit I'm liking it.

I stopped him, "Logan can you send Carlos up please?"

He smiled at me, "Sure thing ma."

I had to laugh at him calling me that. I'm David's mother, not his.

Carlos stuck his head in the door, "You wanted to see me?" he asked.

I smiled at him, "Please come in. You don't have to hide over there."

He quietly walked in, and I sat up on the edge of the bed with him sitting next to me. I looked at him, "Carlos I have to tell you something, but I need you to remain calm and make no sudden movements or loud noises."