Big Time Hangout

Part 26

Carlos sat next to me, "If it is then I will support you but there is something I have to do first." and he leaned over, very gently, brushing his lips over mine. He slowly parted his lips allowing his tongue to dance with mine and then just as gently he backed away, "Sorry. I have wanted to do that for a very long time."

He got up and made his way to the door but before exiting turned to me, "When you get it all figured out I will be here no matter what. I love you (yn)." and out the door he went.

I was drifting in and out of sleep and I couldn't tell if I was dreaming or if my mind was even functioning properly. I heard Katie in and out and asking if I was okay or at least I think that's what was happening. I finally drifted off into a peaceful sleep and started to have a very vivid dream.

"Kendall what are you doing here? You are the last person I want to see. You and Logan fighting isn't going to work. What is your problem? Just let me go if you don't want me."

Kendall hung his head but then looked up at me and leaned in, taking me by the back of the neck and slowly but gently kissed me so passionately I felt my body tingle.

I pulled away from him, "You can't do that. You can't keep doing this to me. You either want me or you don't. There is no in between."

I could see the hurt in his eyes, "Can't you see (yn)? Why should I have to explain it to you?"

I put my hands up, "Just go. How did you get past Katie anyway?"

He laughed, "You told her to send me up here." He looked at me confused.

I shook my head, "No I don't believe I did."

He looked into my eyes, "(yn) are you okay?"

I laid back in the bed and closed my eyes, wishing him away.

I groggily woke up the next morning until I realized there was someone in the bed with me and I jumped waking him up, "Kendall what are you doing here?" I asked.

He laughed, "Again with that question. You told Katie to send me up here. Are you okay?"

I shook my head, "So the dream?"

He looked at me confused, "What dream?"

"The conversation we had last night. Was it real or was I dreaming?"

He shook his head, "It was real. At one point you just fell asleep, and I didn't want to leave you up here alone and I definitely didn't want to leave until we finished our conversation. This needs to be settled. Logan is very upset with me."

Laughing angrily, "And he should be. The fighting isn't okay at all but the way you're treating me is even worse."

I saw the tears starting to well in his eyes, "(yn) you have to understand. Please."

I shook my head, "I'm sorry Kendall but I don't. You are going to have to say it to my face. Tell me you don't want me and it's because I had another man's baby even though that man is your best friend, your brother." The tears streamed down his face as I continued, "Tell me how you will leave with James today and forget all about me. You're really a piece of work you know. All that talk about how you will never leave me and will always love me. You are one hell of an actor Kendall Francis Schmidt!"

The tears started to turn to anger, and he shouted, "I wasn't acting!" he puts his hands in his hair, "God what the hell is your problem? Why can't you let someone love you and try to do what's best for you? Why do you have to act like you have all the answers and everybody else is wrong?" He slammed his hands on the wall, locked the bedroom door and turned to me, "They aren't going to interrupt us this time! I have to make you understand!"