Big Time Hangout

Part 15

Carlos looked at me, "You will have to take that up with him. I'm not getting in the middle of anymore of that." and he kissed me on the cheek, "I'm still heartbroken and hurt. Just give me some time. Maybe I will be able to get over it." and he got up and went back in the house.

I was sitting there not sure what to say or do. I didn't want to be around all of these people, so I didn't want to go back inside but sitting outside didn't really seem like the thing to do either.

I finally dragged myself off the steps and turned the knob on the door. As I opened it there was Katie, "Sis are you okay?" she asked.

I smiled at her, "I will be. Just really upset that I did that to them."

Katie smiled at me, "Yeah I thought I was in trouble when Kendall came over to me. I just knew you ratted me out." she giggled.

I looked at her puzzled, "Then what did he say?"

She laughed, "He actually thanked me. Said he was in the top two and he was really excited but then he got onto me and told me I better not ever do anything like that to them again."

My jaw was on the ground. That wasn't the reaction I expected out of him.

I turned to Katie, "We should really get back inside." and she and I went back in.

The rest of the party went just fine with no drama and everybody having a really good time. I was standing there watching Carlos and Kendall and trying to figure out how I was going to make this decision. I just thought it was hard when there were four of them, but this one seemed almost impossible.

I excused myself before the party was over and went up to my bedroom. I fell on my bed staring up at the ceiling and my mind was racing. I was trying to hold back the tears again when there was a knock on my door. I took a couple of deep breaths and walked over opening it to see Kendall, "Can I come in?"

I gave him a fake smiled and let him in. He walked over to my bed and sat down smiling at me. I turned to him, "What are you smiling about?"

He patted the bed next to him, "Sit down please."

I sat down fidgeting with my hands and he took one of them, "Stop. There is no need to be nervous. I promise not to be mean this time."

I took the opportunity to ask, "I just can't understand your reaction with Katie. Can you explain that please?"

He smiled, "Well I want to be mad I really do. I just couldn't bring myself to because she brought us closer together. Trust me though I don't think she will ever do that again." he chuckled.

He wrapped his hands around my face and leaned in to kiss me. I wanted to so bad, but it just didn't feel right, "Kendall wait."

He backed up, "I'm sorry. I just really want to show you how I feel."

I felt so bad for disappointing him, "Kendall I know you do and as bad as I want you to I just don't feel like it's right. I have a very tough decision to make, and it wouldn't be fair to do this with you and not with Carlos."

He smiled and said almost joking, "So what's the problem?"

I laughed, "I would feel worse kissing you both than I did dating you all. I'm just not that kind of person."

He wrapped me up in his arms, kissing me on the top of my head, "I know sweetheart. I was just picking. It just sucks that we can't spend more time together."

The tears started to flow, "I know it does but maybe it will help me make my decision." and then quickly added, "Not to mention it will tell me if I'm going to be able to handle being the girlfriend of a superstar."