Big Time Hangout

Part 14

I started to cry, and Logan came over, "Are you serious right now? Why in the hell did you do that to us? What have we ever done to you?" he screamed.

My tears turned to anger, "What had you done to me? You never stopped fighting long enough for me to get to know the real you. All you were worried about was getting me and hurting each other! What other choice did I had?" I screamed back at Logan.

Carlos put his hand on my shoulder, "(yn) look me in my eyes and tell me the truth. I deserve it I think."

Logan stepped up, "We all do."

I walked toward the couch and sat down. For the first time since I met them they weren't fighting over who was going to be closest to me. They sat across from me waiting to hear what I had done.

I hollered for Katie who came in the living room followed by James, "Katie will you please go see about Kendall?" I asked.

She looked at the others and realized what had happened and without a word took off out the door with James hot on her heels.

I hung my head and Carlos said, "(yn) we are waiting. Please tell me this isn't as bad as it sounds."

I looked up at Carlos with tears in my eyes, "I really wish I could. You had to know, Carlos, that I feel the same way about you as you do about me first of all."

Logan looked at him and back at me, "So what is that supposed to mean?"

I looked at them both, the tears flowing like a waterfall, "You both have to understand that I felt like I had no choice. You never let me get to know you without starting problems with each other. I never wanted to do this, but I felt like it was the only way."

Logan got up and shouted, "So you dated us all at the same time?" He turned to Carlos, "Did you sleep with her?" he shouted.

I jumped up, "I never slept with any of you! I wouldn't do that to you!"

Logan laughed angrily, "Yeah like you would never date any of us either. Then you went and dated all of us at the same time! Why should I believe anything that comes out of your mouth?" He shouted and stormed out the door.

Carlos was still sitting there with tears in his eyes, "How could you? I thought you really liked me."

I walked over and put my hand on his shoulder, and he shrugged it off, "Please don't touch me." he said. "I still don't understand why you thought this was the answer."

I put my head in my hands, "I honestly don't know. I just wanted to get to know you guys and with all the fighting and arguments it seemed almost impossible. I can't justify what I did and you have NO idea how horrible I felt doing it but it made me realize that I do honestly care a lot about one of you and I was going to put an end to the whole thing. This was what I was trying to tell you when we got here that night, but I fell asleep before I could." I looked up at him, "I know it's a lot to ask but could you ever forgive me?"

He stood up and turned his back to me, "I need some time to think." and walked out the door behind the others.

James came back in the house and came over to me, wrapping his arms around me and stroking my hair, "What you did was horrible but calm down. I kind of understand why you did it. You really didn't feel like we left you any choice." He pulled me back and lifted my face to look at him, "It's not okay that you did it, but I get it. I knew something was going on which is why I bowed out like I did. I care about you a bunch but I couldn't stand the thought of hurting you the way we were. It didn't register what we were doing until you were gone, and I sat back and thought about it. I realized we put you in a bad situation and I didn't want to keep doing that."