Castlevania: Dark side of the moon

Repressed desires attract unnameable demons.

I repressed my deep feelings for Adrian, and that opened the breach in my psyche for Cain.

When the blood of a woman, who descended from childhood into adulthood, came, I spent days delirious with fever, and after that, my mother became very strange with me.

She never left me alone with Adrian. I used to ride with him, walk, and talk philosophy. She stopped that contact. On monster-hunting trips, when we reached a village that other cities needed help due to some infestation, she and my father would take turns staying with me, and I was no longer allowed to stay with Adrian and Greta like before.

Now, the feeling that was taken from me, the closeness to my godfather during the transition from childhood to youth, I realize was because mom must have noticed my sick and disgusting interest in my godfather. I must have called for him in my dreams before Cain appeared. She must have heard my moans for him, back when I didn't even know what I felt for him.

Sypha noticed and wanted to keep me away from him and Greta. I was an abomination. And yet, my mother always tried to protect me by regulating my contact with Adrian and Greta from then on.

How could my mother tell her best friend that her daughter desired her husband and the man who should have been like an uncle to her? How could my mother explain that I, the child Adrian delivered and watched grow up, wanted him not as an uncle, but as a man?

Adrian, who was practically family. My parents told me that all the time, even though they teased Alucard for being half-vampire.

Yes, he was like an uncle. A soul-brother to my parents. And Greta was someone dear, intelligent, a companion my mother adored for being a natural leader. In the village that eventually took my family's name, Belmont, Greta founded schools, places where everything was taught, and the knowledge from past eras became regular education, and my mother could use her voice and teach. Greta... A phenomenal woman, someone my mother was proud to call a friend, but because of me, she distanced herself.

How could I desire him and think of competing with such a brilliant woman? How could I think of Adrian... That's how Cain found space. My growing guilt for feeling something so wrong for Adrian and wanting him between my legs, sucking my blood, and then inside me, making me his.

There, not here. Here, there's no condemning bond for him. Here, he never met my godmother, and now, he can look at me, and I can finally have what I want without caring about the consequences of my vile desire for my parents. Here, I can just be an ordinary woman whom Adrian can touch without feeling disgusted and guilty.

Mom, Dad, and Alucard were now standing before a magic mirror, speaking words to conjure Dracula's castle from Braila to our lands. I saw the castle in the mirror. The strength my mother conjured alongside Alucard. It was horrible to see her exhaust herself so much because it reminded me of the effort she made to make me see Adrian as an uncle.

She tried so many times to give me gifts like his, so I wouldn't want his presents and reject him. Oh mom, forgive me. Forgive me! Please, forgive your disgusting daughter.

When Cain appeared, I felt relieved because that way, I wouldn't think about Adrian. Until I actually fell in love with Cain, and my love saved him from hell.

Now Adrian and I can happen because only I know the dirty secret that would condemn me.

Dantalion showed me a spell in a book. I studied it, trying to focus on the page. I understood one thing or another because it was written in Nordic runes. It was a spell about the infinite corridor. It was something very vague about different realities and time travel.