Switched (Jeremy Shada Fanfic)

~Chapter 11~ (REVISED)

UGH UGH UGH UGH HALF OF MY CHAPTER GOT DELETED AGAIN I WANT TO SCREAM AND THROW OBJECTS WHY ME WHAT THE HECK WHY IS THIS HAPPENING AND THIS CHAPTER WAS REALLY SAD AND I DONT THINK I CAN RECREATE THAT SADNESS YOU KNOW UUUUUGGGGHHHHH SHOOT ME NOW. here is the revised version. excuse me while i break things. if you happened to be the lucky few who read the completed chapter befoer it was deleted, read this entire thing becasue i changed alot.

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GRACELYN'S POV

Today is reality, yesterday was a memory and tomorrow is a dream.

"That's what makes you beautiful!"

My phone interrupted my writing. I sighed and shut the laptop, rolling over my bed to get my cell from the bedside table. I looked across the room in the dark. The lighted alarm clock read 12:38. Who could be calling this late?

"Hello?" I was too tired from the fair to even check the ID.

"Um, hi Gracelyn."

"Jeremy?" I was awake now. He hasn't talked to me in months.

"Uh, yeah. Hehe." He nervously laughed.

"Hey! What's up?"I sat up against the headboard, hugging my giant panda to my chest.

"You aren't mad?" He asked.

"No. Why would I be?" I asked confused.

"I haven't talked to you in 2 months. I never even gave you an explanation." He confessed.

"I thought you were mad at me. I'm

not mad."

"Then why didn't you try talking to me?" We were both silent.

"Well, if you were mad, I wanted to give you space to blow off steam." I explained after a while.

"Oh."

We were silent again, not knowing what to say.

"So, um," "I'm sorry." We said at the same time. We paused again at an awkward silence. I heard Jeremy take a long sigh on the other line.

"Sorry for what?" I asked cautiously.

"Well, when you and Brady first went out I got really mad and stuff because he's a jerk and I don't like him at all and I continued going out with Olivia because I thought it would make you jealous and I didn't talk to you to see if you even still cared but you were so caught up in Brady that you didn't even notice that I wasn't talking and whenever you were with him I would do something lovey with Olivia to make you jealous but you never even noticed so..." He rambled.

"Excuse me?" I cut him off with my harsh words.

"Gracelyn, I'm sorry, I just,"

"You just thought going out with my best friend to make me jealous was ok? You thought that making me feel like I did something to you to make you hate me was ok? You really think that?" I spat into the phone angrily.

"Grace, let me explain," He pleaded.

"Explain what? I know perfectly well what's going on. You can hate Brady but do you seriously have to hurt me so bad? What does Liv think? She thought you like her!" I yelled, getting up from the bed.

"I do like her! It's just..." He trailed off.

"Just what?" I said venomously.

"Just that she isn't you!" Everything was silent.

"Grace, I've liked you for a long time. Felicity and Liv have been trying to get you to go out with me for months. They totally support me in this. Liv was the one that said I should tell you! I thought you knew but decided to ignore it! So yes, I did go to drastic measures but it was only because I love you. A lot. Everyone knows. It's not some secret. You seem to be the only one not able to see it. It's so clear. It's clear to me! I've given up hiding it! I'm done because everything I do seems to backfire in my face! Nothing makes you notice me! You are always too caught up in your own little games with Brady. I'm done playing games! I don't want to be caught up in this little game of 'Pick the Better Boy' because I know I will never win. Brady will always be number one to you and I can see that now. You play with my mind and it confuses me! One day you act like I'm your best friend and the next you don't even acknowledge my presence." He said angrily.