Switched (Jeremy Shada Fanfic)

~Chapter 16~

GRACELYN'S POV

'He wanted to ask me something?'

I walked confused into my room and flopped down on the bed. Now to think of a plan.

'Just go right out and tell him the next time you see him.'

'Or text him.'

'Write him a letter.'

No. I need to do this in person. I need to do this alone.

'When should I go over?'

Nighttime seems the best so my mom won't wake up and I can talk to him privately. I looked over at my alarm clock across the room. 4:47. I would have to wait here at least another 6 hours. I could at least use the time to rehearse what I'm gonna say.

I waited for hours, laying on my bed, staring at the ceiling, thinking of a way to tell him.

'Jeremy I though you should know that you are the one I want.'

Too cheesy.

'Jeremy sometimes people want to say something but they don't know how to say it so they say it in a puzzle kinda like this conversation because I don't really know how to tell you but I want to tell you I just don't know how and now I'm just rambling because I'm scared of what you'll think of me after I tell you but....'

Too complicated.

The chain was endless. I couldn't find the perfect way to tell him. I'm scared he'll run. Although he did tell me he like me before the incident. But his feelings might have changed. Why is this so hard?

By the time I was done racking my brain for ideas, it was 12:34 and I still didn't have a plan.

'Well we're just gonna have to wing this aren't we.'

Without a second though, I opened my balcony window. Just in case I wasn't home when my mom woke up, I left her a note saying where I was going.

I stepped outside and was immediately greeted with a chilling breeze. I shivered and closed the window behind me. The tree that leans near the window was thick enough that I could climb on the branches and jump out.

I grasped on the branches and lowered my way down to the grass. When I reached the ground I broke into a sprint across the street. Jeremy's room had the same balcony as mine and there was a ladder across the yard in front of the shed. I grabbed the ladder and made my way over to his window, trying hard not to sway from the freezing winds. After reaching the top, I took a deep breath and knocked on the window quietly. Jeremy wasn't asleep yet, he was sitting on his bed with his phone and headphones. He didn't seem to hear me. I was getting a little frustrated because it was getting colder by the second and me being smart, i didn't bring a jumper or a jacket. I knocked a little louder. This time he did look up and opened the door.

"Gracelyn, what are you doing here? It's freezing out!" He noticed my violent shaking and pulled me inside, closing the window behind me.

"I, um, I needed to talk to you." I was still cold, my arms wrapped around my torso.

"God, are you crazy? It's midnight and freezing cold, can't this wait till tomorrow?" He grabbed a sweater from his bed and wrapped it tightly around my shoulders.

"N-no. It really can't." I shifted my weight from one foot to the other, not daring to meet his gaze.

I could feel Jeremy staring intently at me. "Ok. So what is it?"

"I-I, um, I, Jeremy, I, uh," I kept my gaze locked on the floor and I racked my brain for a good excuse to get out of here. I can't do this. I'm a coward.

"Gracelyn, is something wrong? Did something happen?" He grasped my arm and put two fingers under my chin, forcing me to look up him. I felt like I was going to puke. How is this so hard? I shook my head gently.

"You know you can tell me anything, right?" He stared harder into my eyes.

I nodded gentler than I intended.

"Please tell me." He whispered.

"I-I can't."

He sighed and took a slight step back.

"Then can I ask you something?"

I nodded again.

"Why did you kiss me? At the hospital?"

I stood in shock. For a second I thought he meant the kiss that I stole when he was asleep but I soon realized he was talking about the one in front of the paps.

"Oh, that. Well, I know you hate when people inquire about things you don't want to t-"

"Cut the bullshit, Gracelyn." He cut me off. "I want to know the real reason. Why do you always do the most absurd things and then lie to me? You think I can't tell when you're lying but I can always tell. Why do you feel the need to lie to me? I thought we were best friends." The hurt was clear in his eyes.

"That's why!" I half yelled at him. After all it was almost one in the morning. "I don't want to be best friends!"

He took a step back in surprise. "W-what? Are you serious?"

"I don't want to be best friends." I sighed. "I want to be more than that." I whispered.

"Yo-you what?" He whispered back.

"I want to be more than friends, alright Jeremy? There! I said it! And I know you don't want to so I'll just go now." I wiped the tears that were now streaming down my face and walked as quick as I could to the window.

"Gracelyn! Wait!" I could hear Jeremy coming after me but I just climbed faster and ran faster across the lawn.

"Please stop." He grabbed my wrist, forcing me to turn around.

"I'm so-sorry. I didn't mean to ruin our friendship." I hiccuped as he pulled me into a hug in an attempt to keep my warm from the freezing wind that was blowing around us.

"But I want to." He whispered.

"You what?" I pulled back a little so I could see his face.

"I want to be more than friends, too."

"Really?"

He laughed slightly. "Really."

And then, he kissed me. And let me tell you, it was everything a kiss should be. Warm, slow, soft, magical. It was just how people described it. I felt the fireworks, I felt the warmth spread throughout my body, I felt the emotion. This is what it feels like to love and be loved.

Eventually, we broke apart and I looked at him.

"Jeremy?"

"Hmm?"

"What are we?"

"I don't know."

"Are we dating?"

"If you want to be."

"But we haven't gone on a date yet."

He smirked. "Well, I guess that's gonna have to change isn't it. Now let's go inside before one of us gets sick."

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AWWW FINALLY RIGHT. Sorry for short chapter I just didn't have anything else to add and I didn't want it to drag on you know?. i really need to learn how to keep promises.

JEREMY WAS AT THE TCA's AND THEY SHOWED HIM. I REPEAT JERERMY SHADA WAS ON MY TV. YES I CRIED YOU CAN ASK MY BEST FRIEND I TOLD HER ALL ABOUT WHY I WAS CRYING AND SHE TOLD ME SHOULD COULD HEAR ME ALL THE WAY IN ILLINOIS.

so in other news, expect an update next week or ealier or whenever i fix all this crap in my life.

IM SORRY THAT I SUC AT BEING AN AUTHOR im really bad at writing and i never update on time hashtag sigh

QOTD:

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BYEE -Steffi