Runaway // Matthew Espinosa

Chapter 30

Matt's POV.//

They have left Australia and returned to California.

Zoe stormed out of our room after returning from the balcony and seeing me, or at least that's what she attempted in making me believe. She was hurt, more than hurt. I had destroyed her heart. Instead, she left the room with her hopelessly trying to hold back her tears. I knew once I was out of sight, she was going to cry for hours.

Even though our fight occurred 2 weeks ago, nothing changed. We didn't say a word to each other.

I messed up big time and this was not the way I wanted to break it to her. I knew I was fully responsible for all of this, but I didn't mean to hurt her. Another tear escaped my eye and I quickly brushed it away. I was upset because she was. As well as being upset, I didn't want her to leave me or hate me.

As much as I wanted to talk to her about this, I knew it would make matters a lot more worse than they are right now. I sat myself outside on the balcony, bringing my knees up to my chest.

I wrapped my arms around them as if I was trying to hold myself together. It was pointless because with Zoe's hatred for me, I had already fallen apart.

I kept quiet, trying to find a way to calm down. My eyes would focus on the night sky, but my mind was replaying everything Zoe had said to me. She couldn't possibly hate me? I made a big mistake, but she knows it was to protect her. Zoe is stubborn though, it will take her time to realize.

Even though I wasn't hiding anything major from her anymore, I wasn't feeling an relief. I was nervous as hell. How could I talk to her again? How could I even face her?

I thought loneliness would help, but it wasn't. I needed to talk to someone. I needed help. Having all my emotions kept inside wasn't making me feel better.

I reached for my phone and dialed Sammy's number. As much as I wanted to blame Sammy for constantly bugging me about telling Zoe, I was the one who lied.

Pick up Sammy, pick up.

"Matt? It's pretty late. What's going on?"

"S-Sammy. Zoe knows. She found out."

I already knew that I was going to be in tears by the end of this conversation.

"What?! How?!"

I explained everything that had happened. I left out no detail. From her hearing the truth to every word she said to me. Sammy knew everything now.

"I'm sorry Matt. This is all my fault."

"But you never lied to her. I did. I'm responsible for this."

"Matt, you never meant to hurt her. You were trying to protect her from Grayson. God, this is all because of Grayson. I'm going to kill that son of a-"

"Sam." I paused for a moment. "How do I even face her?"

"Where is she right now?"

"She is in another room. She told me to go away. I'm scared that she may do something."

"Give her space. She needs it. I promise that this will all go away. You may think she hates you, but she acted like that because she was mad. Zoe still loves you and no one can change that."