save me from them

chapter 12

----- = pov change
- - - - = time skip
***** = flashback/dream

tw: mentions of @buse, seungmin gives jeongin and felix h!ckeys then they fvck him, jeongin cvckwarms felix, mentions of ped0philia and !ncest, seungmin h!ts his head

after one week, it was time for another appointment. and seungmin was nervous. because he knows they'll probably want him to talk about his hate for being a hybrid. and he's scared because he doesn't know how he can ever get over it. if he can ever get over it.

jeongin holds his hand as he drives, glancing at him. "don't be nervous baby. if it's too much we will stop." seungmin nods and plays with jeongins fingers nervously. jeongin parks and kisses seungmins forehead.

seungmin smiles softly and gets out with jeongin. jeongin leads him inside and sits down with him next to iseul. seungmin takes a deep breath and holds jeongins hand again.

"hi seungmin. have you had a good week?"

"yes. well... pretty good. have had some bad thoughts. but got to try new foods!"

"well, how about we start with the food. what new things did you try? do you remember the names?"

"I think so.... uhm... pi-zz...a?"

"pizza, okay! how did you like it."

"was good! but the.. fried... rice? with.. uhm... st...ea..k? was really good."

"steak fried rice? wow! that sounds really good"

"was really yummy. also tried a lot of different korean things..? uhm.. kim..chi? all was really good." seungmin smiles

"I'm glad you liked it!" iseul states "now, how about those bad thoughts? how frequent were they?"

"had some memories coming back... uhm.. after appointment last week.. was gonna do it with changbin.. first time with him.. and minho watching... but reminded me of when alphas would.. touch themselves.. to me getting an abortion... which was just me getting hit a lot in the stomach.. and... had a lot of bad thoughts about being a hybrid..."

"oh baby you could've told us.. we're here to remind you how beautiful it is." jeongin interjects and iseul nods, taking notes.

"did you talk to anyone about them?" iseul asks

"not since the night after our appointment... just didn't seem important."

"I think it's actually very important. if you're feeling bad about it, you won't want to shift. if you don't shift it can affect your health horribly. when was the last time you shifted?"

"a couple of months..." seungmin whispers and jeongins eyes go wide because he never even thought about that. worry increases in his mind until seungmin hugs onto him, pulling him closer.

"okay. that's not safe seungmin. so what I want you to try is to shift atleast once every two weeks. if you're comfortable, maybe even once a week. and if you're having trouble doing so, shift only with jeongin. do you think you can do that?"

"m' can try... just scary... do gross things."

"do you think jeongin finds it gross?"

"no... innie likes it... has asked before." jeongin smiles proudly when he hears seungmin say that.

"so what's the hesitance with shifting around him?"

"don't want to get gagged again... don't want to eat dog food..."

"they gagged you there? why?"

"if I licked anyone, including myself."

"so you remember what a gag looks like?" iseul asks and seungmin nods, tilting his head