save me from them

chapter 26

----- = pov change
- - - - = time skip
***** = flashback/dream

TW: some mentions of g0re, lots of $ex, seungmin has a flashback, degr@d@t!on, mentions of bl00d, 0megaspace

"I'll be gone just a few minutes okay? I'm just going to go grab some snacks. if you need anything, mindlink with me." jeongin says and seungmin nods nervously. he's on the ground, playing with the babies when jeongin announces he's leaving the room. but when he says he'll be gone a few minutes, he feels okay-ish.

he watches jeongin leave the room and picks up yujun and minjun, sitting in one of the chairs and cuddling them close. "my babies. mommy loves you so much okay?"

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jeongin sits down on the couch, holding onto felix as he anxiously waits until chan says he can go check on him.

"what if he relapses? what if he has a panic attack?" jeongin asks and chan looks at him. "he'll mind link with you. but for now, lets just see how long he goes until he says anything."

by now it had been a few months since seungmin dissociated. at his last therapy session, iseul handed jeongin a note. she suggested seeing how long seungmin could be alone with the babies. so that way he could see that he wasn't going to hurt them. and jeongin was terrified of the idea but when he talked with the rest they said it would be a good idea.

"I just... don't want him hurt. even more scared of himself."

"he won't be babe. I promise. if anything, I think he'll realize he can be alone with them." minho says

"how long has it been anyway?" felix asks curiously

"almost thirty minutes." jisung says and they all look at each other in surprise.

"I should go check on him..." jeongin goes to get up and felix stops him

"no. I can easily feel his emotions. he's okay." hyunjin says

jeongin sighs and nods, cuddling into felix and waiting.

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seungmin puts the babies in their cribs once he notices that they were tired and kisses their foreheads. he steps out of the room and goes into the den, looking at the others curiously and tilting his head.

"innie I thought you were going to get snacks?" he sits down and jeongin holds him close. "you alright baby? did anything happen?"

"no? why would it? you were only gone for a few minutes I thought?"

"babe... it's been 3 hours." chan says, smiling softly "you spent 3 hours alone with your babies and nothing bad happened."

"...wait what? really? I didn't even notice it was that long. I was just cuddling them and playing with them..."

"yes really baby. you did it." jeongin says

seungmin tears up and snuggles into jeongins chest. jeongin rubs his back and kisses his forehead "let it out baby. it's okay."

seungmin sobs softly and holds onto jeongin tighter. "I didn't... even think about anything happening to them.. I didn't get a single flashback. so I can.. I'll be safe..? they'll be safe... alone... with me...?"

"of course they will babe. they have always been safe alone with you. I know you have felt differently before but I know when it came down to it, you would never be able to murder our kids. you would find a way back." jeongin kisses his head

seungmin nods softly and slowly looks up at the rest "thank you guys.. I know innie wouldn't of done this on his own. he's too protective." he giggles softly "but I really needed this. to see that I could do it."