save me from them

chapter 17

----- = pov change
- - - - = time skip
***** = flashback/dream

TW: mentions of @buse, seungmin is !nsecure but are we suprised atp, mentions of some g0re, slight p@nic attack, mentions of male 0mega autonomy, 0verstimulation, v!brators, the members tell seungmin about their tramua and he cries

seungmin was actually kind of excited to talk to iseul today. there were so many exciting things happening and he was excited to share it with iseul! so, even though he still has felix and jeongin join him for the appointment, he's not terrified like he usually is. he knows they'll eventually have to talk more about him being a hybrid but for now he gets to share fun things!

"somebody's excited huh?" felix teases and seungmin nods "I wanna tell iseul about our junnies!"

jeongin smiles widely and gently rubs seungmins thigh as he drives "yeah? I bet she'll be excited to know."

seungmin giggles and nods, watching as jeongin parks. they all get out and seungmin is practically bouncing into iseuls office. the other two chuckle as they watch the scene, following after him.

"I see you're excited to tell me something. what's up?" iseul asks and seungmin nods

"well, first innie got me this really cute collar! see!" jeongin swears his heart skips a beat when he sees how proudly seungmin shows it to iseul.

"it's beautiful. how does it make you feel to have something like this?"

"it makes me feel.. amazing. like someone actually wants me for.. me. whether I'm a puppy or a human, I know that someone loves me for who I am. I know it's like an ownership thing and I guess I do kind of see it that way? but not like in a bad sense. I know jeongin loves me enough and wants me enough to say that I'm his. cause I mean.. on the tag. he could've had felixs.. or chans.. or hyunjins number engraved. but it wasn't any of theirs. it was his. that really means a lot to me." jeongin tries hard not to have any reaction to what seungmin was saying but hearing how much that made him happy, he couldn't help but melt a little.

"I'm glad it makes you feel that way. try always keeping it with you. even if it's not on your neck. just as a reminder of how much your pack loves you as a puppy whenever you are having bad days. I'm assuming your packs reactions were all positive as well?"

"yes! of course they were. when I showed them, I could tell they we're all so happy for me. it made me feel.. really safe. and loved."

"I'm glad. I can tell something else is on your mind though. what else happened?"

"hyunie told us the genders of the pups. we're having a girl and a boy! we're gonna name them minjun and yujun!" seungmin squeals and holds jeongins hand.

"that's great seungmin! those are such beautiful names. you two are going to make great parents."

"thank you." the two say in unison.

"you're welcome. is there anything else? did you have any bad days?" iseul asks and seungmin nods.

"I had one bad day. it was the same day innie gifted me the collar. and later that day I asked about like.. you know.. giving birth. cause I didn't know I had the thingy females do. then we found out that I was uhm.. used in that hole once. hyunie said it was only once because I was probably too sensitive and was too loud. but I don't remember it at all." seungmin says

"considering how traumatic that would've been to experience, it makes sense that your mind blocked out that memory. let's start with your bad day. what did you do to stop it? how did you cope with it?"

"well... I kind of.. cut myself off from everyone. and stayed in innies room. but then I started to feel like cutting my ears and tail off so I mindlinked with innie. then talked with him about it and then he gifted me the collar which just completely got rid of my bad thoughts so."