save me from them

chapter 15

----- = pov change
- - - - = time skip
***** = flashback/dream

tw: seungmin is !nsecure as fvck, they b0dy w0rship him a lot, seungmin sh!fts

seungmin was extra nervous about this therapy appointment. he knew he would have to talk about a lot and he didn't want to talk about... well even half of it. before jeongin and seungmin leave for the appointment, seungmin stops him. "can felix come with us....?" he looks at jeongin and whispers "I'm scared...."

jeongin takes seungmins hand and kisses it gently "of course baby. we'll get through this okay? like iseul said, if you don't want to talk about it we don't have to."

"I know... but I want to... I just... it's hard..." seungmin rests his head on jeongin, licking his scent gland. jeongin shivers and goes to find felix. turns out felix was in the kitchen with hyunjin, watching him cook. "hey babe."

"hi jeongin!" felix smiles widely, pecking jeongins cheek "what's up? I thought you guys had to leave for his appointment." hyunjin pecks jeongins cheek as well.

"seungmo wants you to come too. he's scared... cause we're gonna talk about how he feels about being a hybrid."

"oh poor baby... of course I'll come. bye babe." felix hugs hyunjin and walks to the door with jeongin. seungmin hugs felix "thank you."

felix wraps his arms around seungmins waist and smiles, pecking his lips "of course sweetie! let's go, yeah?" seungmin nods and walks to the car with them. felix sits in the back, jeongin drives, and seungmin sits next to him. seungmin interlocks his hand with jeongins and squeezes it gently.

"everything will be alright my love. if you need to stop, we can stop." jeongin gently rubs his palm as he parks. seungmin takes a deep breath and pulls jeongin close, burying his head in his neck. he inhales as much of his scent as he can before pulling away, relaxing against him.

"do you want me to scent you my love?" jeongin asks and seungmin nods "please alpha...."

jeongin rubs his scent gland all over seungmin. seungmin smiles "mm.. thank you my alpha."

jeongin smiles widely and pecks his lips "of course baby. you ready?"

seungmin nods and gasps when felix opens the car door for him. he giggles and gets out, holding onto felix and jeongins hand. the three of them sit down in the office and iseul greets them. "hey seungmin! I see you brought felix this time? everything okay?"

"mhm... just... scared about... the conversation were gonna have.." seungmin mutters and iseul nods "you have every right to be. it is scary to be vulnerable. by all means, if you don't feel comfortable talking about being a hybrid then that's fine! we can always wait."

"I want to... I'm just scared... it.. it hurts so much."

"what hurts?"

"it hurts to hate myself so much... and bringing it up just makes it hurt worse..." seungmin sighs softly and leans his head on jeongins chest.

"I completely understand. which is why I want to give you some options. we could start talking about how you feel about being a hybrid and just end the session there. we could do a check in then talk about it. or we could talk about it then do a check in." iseul says and seungmin whines softly.

"I don't... know..." seungmin buries his head in jeongin, playing with his fingers.

iseul nods "how about we do a quick check in yeah? how was this week? any nightmares or flashbacks?"

"yes... uhm.. well.. after our appointment last week... my hormones I guess... we're going crazy.. and I uh.. well I did something with jeongin.. kinda in front of everyone.. then I felt bad that I didn't do anything with the rest. but we talked it out and felt better. then like... two days ago I guess? chan alpha was in prerut and I had a flashback about.. when an alpha at that place was in rut and.. did that to me.. the day after my abortion. there was blood everywhere... but uhm we went to the zoo! we saw a lot of animals and and one looked like innie! but when I was petting an animal I saw pak sung.. which was scary. but they protected me." seungmin smiles softly as he thinks about it "I really liked the zoo. I would love to go again and get to see all the animals!"