If it can't be you

🌌Dream 45🌌

Gem and Phuwin was at lost, Gem wants to talk to Mark and enjoy his time with Mark but at this moment, it seems like Fourth is the center of Mark's world.

He gets that, he is not some teenager who has to have his lovers attention all the time, and it seems like Fourth really needs Mark now.

Phuwin was also struggling.

He wants to be the one to console Fourth, he wants to be the person that Fourths leans on but it looks like he needs more time to prove that he can take care of Fourth.

Plus, he will be traveling soon. He actually needs Mark to take care of Fourth while he is away.

Phuwin, once again looked at his Fourth.

He looked so damn sad, he wants to ask Fourth what's happening, how can he help but the words just got lost in his mouth as he sees the two best friends whispering to each other.

Mark played with Fourth in the water not leaving his side. Both Gem and Fourth gave the two best friends the privacy that Fourth seemed to need.

They just stayed on the sidelines sitting together and keeping watch.

A few minutes past, Fourth hugged Mark for a good minute before letting go and finally smiling.

"I'm okay now, I am sorry, Mark. I did not mean to..."

"It's okay, my dearest friend, who am I, if I can't understand you, then I don't deserve to be your friend."

"Let's go." Said Fourth.

When the the twins noticed that Fourth and Mark are getting off the water, they immediately went to help their own partners.

They proceeded to go down back to where they camped.

Gem and Mark walked a little farther away to give Phuwin and Fourth time to themselves.

It was a quiet walk back. Phuwin held on to Fourth and Fourth just went quietly.

Once they arrive the camp Phuwin immediately went inside the tent, leaving Fourth outside. A few minutes past, Phuwin went out with bathing essentials and change of clothes for the two.

Both are still really quiet while Phuwin lead Fourth to the designated bathing area. Fourth wanted to enter a separate cubicle but Phuwin gave him a fierce look so he just followed Phuwin.

Phuwin helped Fourth out of his clothes then removed his own clothes.

Fourth did not want to offend Phuwin more, he knows that he's been acting like a child, ruining their time together. He did not mean to but he also did not know how to control his emotions. The trauma and all the things flooded his mind, he knows that he is being weak, he wants to be strong, Fourth did not want to burden anyone, let alone the man he loves.

Phuwin turned the water on, it was a bit cold but they both needed that.

Phuwin bathed them both, still quiet. It's not that he is mad, maybe he is, but not with Fourth, he is mad that Fourth clearly is suffering but he did not know how to help Fourth. He wants to be the one to calm Fourth down, he is Fourth's Faen but up until now, Fourth still relies on Mark more.

It's not that he does not want Fourth to be friends with Mark, he just want to be Fourth's source of stregnth. He feels really pathetic because he never gave this much importance to anyone before. He only feels this way with Fourth.

After their shower, they both got dressed and head back to their tent. Gem and Mark are nowhere to be seen.

Phuwin was the one who finally broke the deafening silence.

"Can you tell me what's wrong?" Phuwin asked Fourth softly, he sitted Fourth Infront of him while giving Fourth a hug.

"I'm sorry, Phuwin. I know that we are supposed to be enjoying our time today."

"I don't care about that, I care about you more. Let me know what's happening, let me be there for you." Phuwin said while kissing Fourth's cheeks.

"I am not ready, I'll try to be okay. I am okay now, but I can't talk about it. Not here, please Win, give me time."

"Okay." Phuwin said softly. He wanted to know but did not want to push Fourth too hard.

He moved a bit so he can make Fourth lay down, he laid beside Fourth wrapping his arms around him, having Fourth lay on his chest.

"Sleep for a little while, rest your body and your heart. I'll stay with you."

Fourth being tired himself immediately fell asleep, Phuwin gently pattted Fourth's back while giving his head soft kisses.

Eventually, Phuwin also fell asleep.