If it can't be you

🌌Dream 46🌌

Fourth woke up alone in the tent. He quickly looked at his watch, it's 7PM.

He stretched a bit to take away the sleepiness away. He can hear people outside talking. He slowly want outside.

All eyes landed on him so he quickly averted his eyes, getting a little shy.

Gem nudged at Phuwin, swho was stetting a dish in their table.

"Good Morning, Princess!" Teased Gem which earned him an elbow in his stomach, delivered by Mark.

He quickly held up his hands in surrender.

"I'm sorry, is there anything I can help?" He quickly asked, realizing that they are preparing dinner.

"We are all good, love. Come, let's quickly wash your face and so we can eat our dinner." Phuwin walked over to Fourth to usher him to the designated wash area.

He quickly went with Phuwin, still a bit shy because of what happened earlier, but he is feeling a lot better now.

"I'm sorry for..."

"No, don't mention anything. Let's relax my love." Whispered Phuwin. Fourth hugged Phuwin while continuing their walk.

After doing his chores, Phuwin not leaving his side they walked back to camp.

Phuwin prepared Fourth's dinner, not letting Fourth  help out.

"Such a princess!" Gem once again teased. He wants Fourth to be used to him, since he knows that he is the star of the group, he figured that if he is on a better terms with Fourth, Mark would appreciate Gem more.

"Why are you always teasing my friend?" Asked Mark, a bit irritated. He knows that Fourth gets shy easily and might not want to attention.

"I just want him to get used to me being around so I can be with you more!" Teased Gem.

"Are you and Mark dating now?" Asked Fourth calmly.

"No!"

"Yes!"

Mark and Gem answered at the same time. Just guess who said what!

"Mark, you and Gem looks good together, if you like him, just date him already."

"How can you just say that? With a straight face? Like wow!"

"Why? Is there a problem?"

"Well, how can you just let me date anyone? Do you want to get rid of me?"

"Well, I'm already dating, P'Win, what's stopping you from dating anyone?"

"Yes, why can't you date, and both of you stop saying Anyone! I am here, a person with a name and feelings!"

"I can't date anyone yet Fourth, I need to take care of you." Mark said in the lowest tone he could muster.

"I can take care of Fourth!" Phuwin decided to join the conversation.

"Can you, really? Till when, I'm sorry but Fourth.... Fourth needs me, I can't risk it, I know you love him now, but until when? If... If..."

"Mark don't say it." Fourth pleaded with Mark. Holding his hands.

"Say what?" Said Phuwin.

"Mark, please, i'm okay, you don't have to take care of me... No I take that back, you can date but you can't leave me, I don't know what i'm saying but I know that you also need to have your own life, I promise that I will be okay."

"No, Fourth... I can't risk it., what if... What if... It happens again, and I'm not there, I can't lose you."

"Let's just drop it okay, date Gem, don't date Gem, it's up to you, but I am not your burden Mark, you don't have to..."

"Fine! If you no longer want me in your life then fine!" Mark got up and walked away.

Fourth looked at Mark with tears in his eyes. He shouldn't have done that, he shouldn't have said that, not when Mark did everything he can for Fourth.

Not when Mark sacrificed everything to be with Fourth, to help him and take care of him. Hed did not want to push Mark away, but if he did not say anything, Mark will forever sacrifice his own happiness just so he can continue taking care of Fourth.

"Can you tell me what the hell is happening?" Gem, wanting to follow Mark but did not want to come blinded asked Fourth. A hint of impatience in his voice but he also recognized that Fourth was trying to help him be with Mark.

"Um, well, I know you somehow like Mark, you wouln't try to talk to me if you didn't but Mark will never date you."

"What! How the f-"

"Calm down, let him finish." Said Phuwin, trying to be calm, this is not how he wants to end their night.

"Well, Mark, he he is the... Hmm he is the nicest kindest person the world gifted me. He is like the heaven's apology to me. I'm not trying to be conceited, but he is. He saw me when I was at the lowest of the low, he dedicated his entire life, gave me all his time so I can be better. When I was... When I was dying... He... He did everything he could so I can start living again, and when I got better, he never left my side. He knows when I'm about to... Well he knows everything there is to know about me and he doesn't think about him, I think he forgot that  there's also him because all he sees is me, that's why I want him to start dating you, so he can start living his life for himself again... But I also don't want to lose him, I might not survive if he leaves but I don't know... I don't know how to explain anything, I'm sorry."

"Don't be sorry baby, I hope you will try to let me in, I might not be Mark, and I don't know everything but I can be there for you. I can also take care of you, and you can let my brother take care of Mark."

"You don't have to take care of me, I am not a child, I am just not..."

"I'm going to get Mark. Win take care of your child, I'll take care of my own child."