King and Queen

Chapter 41 - Nagtapos.

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Chapter 41

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At some point, this madness has to stop.

That's what I thought last night when the clock ticks 12. Its our sixth anniversary, but I havent heard anything from King since yesterday.

I was secretly hoping na nasa flight na siya ngayon pabalik ng Pilipinas kaya hindi siya nagmemessage sakin. Umaasa akong naalala niya na anniversary namin ngayon. Kahit wala ng surpise shit. Just by his mere presence would be more than enough for me.

I was remembering every single memory I have of him. His possessiveness. His concern about what I eat. How he changed for me. How he tried his very best to get my parents' approval. Every single damn thing.

"Stop playing with your phone, Steffie. It's distracting." Bulong ni Belle sakin.

Ngumuso ako at nilapag ang phone ko sa lamesa. Kanina pa ako nagaabang ng tawag o message mula sakanya. But he's to no avail. I tried to focus to our client but my mind was all over the place. Its already 4 in the afternoon, pero wala paring paramdam si King.

Pinilit kong ituon ang atensyon ko sa kausap namin. Pero wala talaga. Kung ano ano lang ang pumapasok sa isip ko. And I dont like the things inside my head.

Dahil dalawang bagay lang ang pumapasok sa isip ko. Paris. Gelay. I tried to suppress my emotions. You cant just weep infront of your client, Steffie. So get your shits together.

Nang matapos ang meeting ay pagod akong umupo sa swivel chair ko. Its 6 in the evening. Wala parin. "What was that?" Tanong ni Belle na nakapamewang sa harap ko.

I shrugged. "What was what?" Pabalik kong tanong dahil hindi ko siya naintindihan.

Umangat ang kilay niya. "You were obviously not paying attention back there." Inis na sabi niya at inirapan ako.

Napabuntong hininga ako. Alam kong sermon na naman ang aabutin ko sakanya but I need to let this one out. Kasi konti nalang magbbreakdown na ako.

"Hindi pa siya nagpaparamdam mula kahapon." I started as I closed my eyes. "Its our anniversary, Belle. At mukhang wala siyang planong magparamdam." Nanghihinang sabi ko.

I was waiting for her to go beast mode, pero nagulat nalang ako nang maramdaman kong hinawakan niya yung kamay kong nakapatong sa desk ko. Nagmulat ako ng mata, concern was written all over her face.

"Bitawan mo na siya. Let go of him. You're the only one holding on, Steffie. Because he already let go of you the moment he started lying to you." She sighed. "Look, I know you still believe in a second, third, or fourth chance but those chances walked out the door already. And you have to see that." Mahinahong sabi ni Belle sakin.

My heart was slowly getting filled by pain. And Belle's right, it was indeed unhealthy. I was afraid that one day, I cant feel anything anymore. That feeling the pain would be my norm. That I would just suck everything up because I can't feel anything anymore.