Toxic Motivation

Thee Last Night

                       •CYRUS POV•

I grabbed my phone seeing it was 12:03 "Oh shit Happy birthday" I said holding up my hand to toast with Ronnie , We were already 4 shots in and I could tell she was feeling it already "Thank you , wow I'm really 24" she said with a big smile on her face "Yup" I said as we both took our 5th shot back. "I'm hot" Ronnie said as she slid the blankets off her legs "Come get some air" I said looking over at the balcony and I stood up to my feet putting the blunt behind my ear .

"Okay , go get your coat" Ronnie said and I shook my head "Ima just use your robe" I said walking over to her bathroom "- Wait!" she shouted but it was too late , the moment I stepped foot in there I saw her vibrator Laying on a hand towel on the sink. I started laughing "The fuck" I said chuckling , I heard Ronnie run across the room , she squeezed by me in the door way and snatched the vibrator off the towel letting it fall to the floor. "It's not that deep" I said shaking my head "The way you judge.. yes it is" she said in a sarcastic way, I felt a sense of guilt once she said that.

I just shrugged my shoulders "Pass me that robe" I said looking at Ronnie's hotel robe that hung over the rail. I looked at her face when she got close , she looked embarrassed. "Come on" I said walking back out the bathroom , turning the light out behind me. I honestly think I was used to Ronnie's weird behavior, hell maybe she even wanted me to see that . I thought raising my eyebrow I look around on the bed for the lighter , after a few seconds I told Ronnie I'd be back , I left the lighter on the nightstand in my room .

I get to my room seeing the Black lighter on the night stand and I grab it and put the robe on , hopefully this is all I'll need. I go out my balcony seeing Ronnie just a couple feet on the other side , I look down seeing how high up we were , and kept walking . "You cool?" I asked sitting down on the chair next to hers "Yeah" she said and I grabbed the wood from my ear and sparked it. "I don't mean to be so judgmental.. your just something im not used to" I said , I just couldn't help what she said to me a couple minutes ago.. it made me feel like a bad person? I questioned myself.

"I know you don't - you go through a lot" she said taking a shot of the bottle "Not to mention your not really surrounded by love" she said and I started coughing on the smoke "Im surrounded by love" I said looking at her trying not to stare in her eyes. "FBA is a business , that's not lov-" she said and I shook my head "Your wrong" I quickly cut her off "Cyrus them niggas wanna be you ... I pay attention when some of them are around - they stare at your chain , your clothes - they wanna be you trust me" she said .

I smirked "Yeah even you" I said in a joking way "Got that right" she said laughing one of my favorite things about Ronnie is how Down to earth she was , she's so accepting of me and my lifestyle! She never once felt like she was in harms way maybe only that day I tried to kill her.. I hope she knows I'd never let anyone harm her , except me I thought to myself taking another hit of the blunt. "So When's the last time you seen your siblings ?" She asked me randomly "It's been a minute since I seen them , the girls got a different dad so that's where my lil sis is and my older sister got a family in Detroit , I'll let you meet em one day" I said taking another hit of my blunt , she looked happy after I said that "Okay" she said in a high pitch tone .

"I'm glad I told you I liked you" Ronnie said looking at the bottle as if she was reading the words , she sat back in the chair a little more. I felt my heart race a little "Uhh why?" I said trying to sound nonchalant
"Because I don't know .. I-I feel like I don't got weights on my shoulders anymore !" Ronnie said with so much joy , I smiled to myself , I watched as she opened the bottle and I leaned over and took it from her "Well I'm glad the weights are off your shoulders , here your a light weight , give it a couple minutes" I said setting it on the little table "Your right" Ronnie said slumping down in her seat.

"I miss Andy so much" she said as I smoked the blunt. I'm not really good with talking about feelings and all that but I'll try , I thought to myself. "Least she's in a better place" I said blowing the smoke from my mouth. Ronnie looked up at me "I didn't even get to say goodbye! One minute she's here and the next.." She voiced and I shook my head "I get folks.. I do" I said trying to think about something else to say , I looked up at Ronnies face noticing she looked as if she was gonna cry , fuck.

"Aye is you cool folks?" I said looking at Ronnie "I just wish Andy were here that's all" she said , she swiftly wiped her face and cleared her throat. "You can cry if you want" I said inhaling the blunt , she softly chuckled , I never heard that one before I thought. I was pretty high , especially since I was drinking I got up taking another hit and holding it over to Ronnie , I know she didn't wanna smoke but weed always helps me when I'm feeling down. She takes the blunt and hits it a couple times. She holds her breath for a few seconds before letting the smoke out and then hitting it once more before passing it back , I take it from her hands and I swiftly bent over and put it out on the rail.

"You ready to go back in?" She said and I shook my head yes , without saying anything she slowly got up and walked over to the door and I follow up and few steps behind her , looking down at her slim neck , I could smell Ronnie's cologne and it smelled good , definitely something I'd wear I thought to myself. We get back in and I shut the door behind me and walk over to her bed and flop down.Ronnie came on the other side and did the same thing. "I had a great time with you this weekend can't believe we gotta leave so soon" she said grabbing the remote . Truth be told I didn't want to leave neither "I had fun too , believe it or not" I said yawning , I pull out my phone and open it going to Facebook seeing a fight video between two girls.

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