All Or Nothing

Friends Again?

I get outside and see Cyrus's car pull up right in front of me and I get in . "You can leave.." I say feeling sick to my stomach and she pulls off "Is your friend okay?" She asks as she texts somebody while driving with her knee. "She died" I mumbled quietly I wasn't even sure if she heard me those words don't even sound right.

"Shit.." she says putting her phone away as shakes her head ... "She told me to tell you she's sorry and that she loves you with all her heart" Cyrus said and I busted out crying ... I cover my hands with my face as we road off in the awkward silence .

After about 40 minutes we pull up to some old ass building , we drive through it and go up to the roof top where she parks the car "Get out" she says as she opens up her compartment box and grabs some weed and wraps . "You got a tissue?" I ask coughing a little and she points to the glove compartment box.

I open it seeing a 357 magnum , I move around it and grab a few napkins and open my door. I blow my nose so loud my ear popped . "Come on" she says walking towards the edge of the rooftop . I really hope this bitch doesn't try nothing . I finish Boeing my nose and stuff the tissue in my pocket as I start to walk towards her.

"What we doing up here ?" I say watching her sit down on the edge "This where I come to clear my head" she says breaking the weed up on the wrap.
I look around me and take in the beautiful city view as the wind blows a little I try not to think of everything that's going on. "You gonna come sit down or what?" She says looking back at me as she licks the blunt closed .

"I don't really trust you , you might push me" I say walking a little closer "I might , but I won't for now" she says as she sparks the blunt . I walk over to the edge and sit a 3 feet away from her and she laughs . "Here" she says passing me the blunt and I take the longest puff . "Yeah my lil brother introduced me to this spot... he was 17 when he died" she says squinting her eyes for a split second.

"It's a nice spot" I say looking down swinging my feet and sniffing. "It doesn't feel real" I say taking another puff before passing it back to her "Im aware of that feeling" Cyrus says looking away as she smokes "Does that nigga JM know? I heard he was there tonight" I hear her say as she exhaled the smoke through her nose looking back towards me.

"I called him before you came" I say lying , I didn't want her to know I was with John because I don't feel hearing the bullshit that comes with it. "We're gonna find out who did this to her don't trip" she says "Who do I know it wasn't you- or your gang!" I say coming to the realization that everyone is a suspect "Bitch- how dare you! I drove her to the hospital I did everything I could to save her so don't tweak on me shawty I'm not ya enemy!" She says getting smart.

"You was my enemy earlier tho right? I mean you did say we couldn't be cool now more so why you being all nice now..?" I say as she passes me the blunt "Cause you literally kissed me on some gay shit" she says chuckling and I felt embarrassed "Well I'm sorry for kissing you okay? Is that what u wanna hear ?" I say as I inhale the blunt "I don't think you are, clearly you meant to do it" she says chuckling .

I look away from her and don't say anything , I just smoke the blunt "I didn't expect you to be the type to like dykes and shit but whatever floats ya boat I guess" she says swinging her feet "I don't even like dykes all like that ... every thing is still all new to me"
I say. "Okay well you do you like me or something because what was that about?" She says laughing.

"I told you I don't know why I did that , I don't like you like that ... like yeah your attractive but not my type at all" I say passing her the blunt back *aahem* she says fixing her throat "Am I the first dyke you kissed?" She said changing the subject . I spit out a crumb of weed "No unless you consider Willow one" I say looking over to her and wipes her lips "The fuck , you kissed that bitch?" She says looking disgusted.

"You know that's ghost bitch right Ronnie ?!" She says wiping her lips again before she hits the blunt.
"What?! You lying !" I say looking at her confused but mostly shocked .  "Swear to yo god , that's ghosts bitch you ain't know? Shame on her not to say nothing to you" she says taking another hit. I know damn well this bitch lying ! Willow doesn't even seem like that type of girl to be sneaking around let alone be lying.

"I actually feel played" I say as she passes me the blunt "That bitch a bop don't even trip , I just can't believe you kissed the thottie! She not even cute she deadass look like a stale pork chop" Cyrus says and I laugh  "She not ugly at all I wouldn't have kissed her if she was" I say nonchalantly smoking the blunt
"So you must thing I'm not ugly then cuz you kissed me too" she says as spits off the roof .

"I never said you was , I was you was attractive" I say getting tired of repeating myself . "Oh" she says and I look down at my phone , I got a text from John asking where I was and I sigh "You want this?" I say holding the roach up "Nah u can toss it" she says and I throw it watching it hit the ground.

I instantly thought of Andy and felt myself getting upset again. "Man I'm tired" she says after yawning .
I don't say anything "So uh you ready to go?" Cyrus says standing up to wipe her butt off. "I guess.." I say standing up and walking back towards her car. I get to her car first and she unlocks it from the key and I hop in , closing the door as I watch her slowly walk to her car.

"You can take me back to the hotel I was originally staying at" I say as we get back on the road "You wasn't coming back with me tonight?" She says looking straight as she pulls her phone out from her pocket "I don't know was I?" I ask looking at her
"I mean it's up to you.. I just figured giving the unfortunate situation you'd need a friend tonight" she says shrugging her shoulders as she drives with her knee while texting .

"So what now we friends again?" I say and she looks over at me for a second then back towards her phone "Unless your still mad" she says looking up at her road then back to her phone "I'm over it ... I got other things to be worried about.." I say "Good" she says as she turns on music and we drive back to her place.