Can I Not?

Feels, Plz Stop (idk if you wanna read about me wanting my S.O. or not)

I feel like a fucking loser talking about this subject, so I'm gonna be using abbreviations, and idc.

Uhhhhhhg, so fgs, I just really want a fucking hug. And not just any hug. Fucking want a hug from Frost.
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... Actually, cross that shit out. I just fucking want to be with Frost rn and it's fucking murdering me.

And I swear to God, I'm not PMSing.

I just really want to be with him. Idk if it's because yesterday/earlier was his birthday, but damn, I just want him by my side damn it.

Fuck, just like... ever since the day we fucking talked about me showing up at his house, the connection just exploded on my end. Especially after a little talk on Wednesday. Like... I just love him so fucking much, and I just fucking want him next to me and like... uhhhhhhhhg...

Like can I fucking not? But I must because fucking feels and love and all that shit.

Like... Uhg, I feel like my presents were shit... I wish I could've bought like... a eShop card and gave him the code. Or fucking sent him something, but I can't. Just because of our parents.

EVEN... HELL, HE ACTUALLY BROUGHT UP A SUBJECT I DIDN'T EXPECT UNTIL WE MET UP.

I don't even know why I'm going on about this, tbfh. I just want him in my bed rn it hurts. I just want him physically next to me so bad that I can't sleep. Like oml, kms in the name of love.

I've fallen so hard for this boy, and I love it.
But I want him next to me so bad.

I wish fate had it's ways of working the way we want it to.