Can I Not?

Dear ... Challenge

Nominated by: Potato-kohai ^o^ (thank you, this challenge seemed fun XD)

WARNING: THERE WILL BE DEPRESSING PART AND POSSIBLY RANTING. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED!

Dear Ex: Glad I haven't met you yet! Hopefully you don't make me cry my heart out more than I have these part four years of my life. :^)))))

Dear Me: I hate you but love you. Please stop getting so stressed, school is NOT everything. Please stop crying over the smallest things, mistakes lead to success. You are seriously one of the biggest idiots out there, just choose the right people who see you for you. I'm glad you've accepted yourself, but you're doing it in the wrong ways. Stop pulling a "Jessica"; you aren't trash. You're beautiful, even if you deny it every time. There are people you love your humor and everything about you, even if you don't understand at all who you are. Keep being you, and like everyone tells you, you have a bright future. Stop getting so worried, and make your own choices. P.S. Stop hiding your feelings. Talk to someone about how you feel right now. You aren't in the best mindset, and you're destroying yourself keeping it bottled up. Fucking break the damn bottle and admit shit to people who care about you. Stop hiding it all.

Dear Mom: You fucking raised me on your own, and we don't have a lot. But you put me before you, and I can't thank you enough. There are things I've whined over that I don't need, but you get them for me anyway. I won't understand the feeling yet, but I can't repay you enough for everything.

Dear Dad: Why did you leave mom before I was out? Yeah, I heard you weren't ready, but don't you want to see me after fifteen years and then some months?... Mom's done too much on her own... just to meet you one day would be great... call her... if you aren't in a place you shouldn't be...

Dear School: FUCK YOU FOR MAKING ME AN ACADEMIC BASED ASSHAT. I HATE BEING SET TO STEREOTYPES, AND HAVING A FUCKING HARD TIME EVERY DAY. THE ONLY GOOD THING YOU'VE EVER DONE IS KEEP ME OCCUPIED. FUCKING HATE YOU. PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE FOREVER.

Dear Best Friend: You have no fucking idea how estatic I am that you got over Lana. Now we have something to talk about together; drag queens. YES BITCH. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, YOU'RE PRETTY MUCH MY YOUNGER BROTHER AND I CAN'T STRESS ENOUGH HOW HAPPY I AM TO HAVE GOTTEN TO KNOW YOU. YOU FUCKING LAUGH AT MY BURNS AND YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT HOW I LOOK AND SHIT YOU GENUINELY ARE MY FRIEND AND WE'RE GOING TO SLAY SOPHOMORE YEAR TOGETHER. YOU FUCKING MEME LOVING BITCH, YOU BETTER GIVE ME A PENCIL ON WEDNESDAY FOR FINDING OUT YOU'RE QUEEN. P.S. If you turn out to be gay, I called it, you vegetarian.

Dear Crush: Glad you're who I want you to be, ehhhh Tora~

Dear BF/GF: I'm still surprised you put up with me... here we are, getting closer to two years together, and you're just... amazing. I want us to break down both of the things we said to each other about love... you've broken mine down... I hope yours is, too... You were a lot of firsts... and I really hope that someday in the future, you're really here by my side... you're all I see... all I desire... let's hope time goes quick...

Dear Sibling: Contact a sperm donor so mom can get pregnant and have you, please. I need one... I think. It's lonely as hell.

Dear Past Me: You shouldn't have had the life you had... but hey, you're here for a reason. Try to remember as many good times as you could... it just gets harder, but trust me... "before it gets better, the darkness gets bigger", Patrick Stump. I wish you heard words like this before... but hey, Shane is a guardian angel, too. Even for the Internet, never forget he cares about you... even if you are one in a million. Also, you shouldn't have taken the "WEIRD GIRL" phase so hard... but you had Cassie, you're lucky on that... never forget her. Keep her close, she was special... Also, you shouldn't have whined about so much. And gotten mushy with... Him... he wasn't as much as he cracked up to be... *sighs* The past is the past, but they're lessons for the future.

Dear Future Me: Dear God, I hope you're okay. I hope you're an artist who somehow makes money. Hope you're just... grand. You've hopefully made the family proud... I hope you didn't go to college. I hope wishes came true. Don't leave the Fangirl Life, it's the best phase to ever happen to you. It's you. It really is... also, hope you've made A YOUTUBE ACCOUNT LIKE YOU PROMISED 12 Y/O US.

Dear Hated People: Fuck you for bullying me. :^) Didn't need your shit at allllll. :^)) But what do you expect from jackasses? :^))) HOPE :^)))) YOU'RE :^))))) SWELL ;^)))))))))

Dear First Love: Holy fuck, you were cute as hell and I bet you're handsome af. And you were really sweet. I wish I talked with you more. But like... damn, you were perfection in my eyes. And I still remember what you look like... shit. (*internal fangirling over four year old I'm messed up as hell*)

Dear Future Kid: Just have fun. I won't be like grandma with restrictions... just grow up and have fun. Do your best. Go on and do what you want to do. And remember, if Tora is dad, come to me for all the math homework.

Dear Squad: Pls find me, I need my squad. Signed, future squad member.

Dear Spouse: You've given you're all onto us and our future. You're just downright beautiful inside and out for choosing this life choice. Let's do all we can to make us both happy, okay? Love me until we die together... heh, just like in cartoons... "Keep you like an oath, may nothing but death do us part"...~

Nominate: Uhhhh... v(ಥ ̯ ಥ)v

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