Can I Not?

I'm Too Distracted, Might As Well Explain One of My Biggest Triggers

I love talking to people, trust me. I love it. And as seen, I like to use emojis. I'm fine with a lot, except two certain ones...

".-." And "._.".

This triggers my anxiety so much, that it's actually a bit scary to me.

I am always afraid of losing people I talk to, I'm always afraid I'm going to say the wrong thing. I'm always afraid and shy when talking to others, despite my love for talking to others.

But when this is sent, I send a storm of apologies because I'm so afraid I messed up.

My anxiety already causes me to apologize a lot, and repeatedly. When this comes present (it's MUCH worse when it's by itself in a message), it shakes me (literally) and my world as I send apologies.

In another hand, "..." causes the same reaction from me.

Part of this trigger is based off my biggest fear in life, and the fact that I'm afraid of communication as a whole.

So if you ever are going to talk with me, please just keep this in mind, I feel bad enough that I have to see this emoji a few times a week, let alone by another.

And a large thank you in advance.