Can I Not?

A Branch-off Choice

I'll admit it: I've had a horribly depressing week. Today was somehow better than these past two... but better...

Anyway... this past week I've been transitioning into my new schedule... and my favorite class, by no surprise, is my TA Period, or rather, me being a Teacher Assistant for my Spanish 1 teacher from last year.

Let me tell you, I really enjoy working like this... Just helping the teachers and relieving some stress is honestly a thing that makes me smile. That's why I really enjoy going to my old school, and, more or less, working with the 2nd grade class (the teacher is basically a mom who I've know since 7th grade who's just sweet and-- ;-;), or even the 7th/8th grade class (because 8th grade teacher--) or Art (the teacher's not there this year, though...) and Science Lab (best one, especially during the Spring with dissections. *^*). I just really like being able to help others in this way...

If I were to choose a second favorite class, it'd be my Advance Algebra 2 class. I really love my teacher (she's so laid back and hilarious. ;-;), plus it's fucking Algebra--my favorite math subject.

With all the events of this week, and with these two classes being my favorite and having one everyday (TA on B Days, Adv. Alg 2 on A Days), I've been managing... but, with my "depression" on top of this week, I've been deep in thought.

And then a random thought came to my head...

"Wouldn't it be great to be a math teacher like Mrs. Garnett?"
"But... my art..."
"You can always do it on the side... At this point, it's hard to see you'll even make money if you opening up a Redbubble or Society6... You're not like.. making just a certain fandom fanart... OCs won't take you anywhere... Te No Ue Kara! is your only way to get noticed on the Internet by this point..."

And who fucking says that I can't just be a teacher?...

I've always wanted to be a teacher/art teacher. I have kohais here, that look up to me as a teacher-like figure. Little kids from my old school... Sara, Parker, Donavan, Luca, Faith... they all look up to me... I've helped them, whether I was a Reading Buddy for Sara, Kinder Buddy for Faith, a random "mom-like" figure for Parker, a high schooler to Donavan and Luca... I've helped these kids, and they all get a smile when they see me... and they aren't the only ones...

It puts a smile on my face to know I've helped people.

As said by my peers, teachers, and friends, I have a motherly prescience and am a great mentor. People say the get everything once I explain it (which is weird to hear from being a horrible explainer.). People say I should be a math teacher, or a teacher in general. My best friend says I should be either a Math, English (deposit my lack of ability in it), or an Art. And that I should teach to middle schoolers (which was my second thought).

But... I still want to pursue art. But as a on the side thing... and be, well, a math teacher.

Now, I'll have to find a college that has some sort of teaching major, but then minor in Drawing/whatever.

Only downside: Common Core's changing, and soon America (this year, actually) will be teaching Integrated Math... otherwise, Geometry and Algebra together.

But hey, I have a new idea on my future.

Update: I officially brought it up with my mom, and she's saying that no matter what, she's supporting me 150%. But now she's just happy that college is back on the list. -.- She does understand my thought process well on it, continuously commenting how I've always loved to help others, and wanted to be a teacher, and how still minoring in Art will be well, as no matter what, I need a side job to make money and my love for art. I am quite pleased with the outcome...