MOVE ON / FREENBECKY

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LINGLING POV

"You had 3 bites and called it a day?" I complain on our drive back

"It tasted like arse alright" Freen argues back with me, I chuckle as I shake my head

"I see a McDonald's do you want nuggets, you barely ate" I mean I enjoyed my food, I would rate that restaurant a 10/10 and the waiter was cute, but hey I am in love with Orm  and he was flirting with Freen too much, I found it funny how Freen didn't even look up from the table when he attempted to talk to her.

"No I don't" Freen responds "that foods made me feel sick, I'll eat later or I'll cook something" she responds.

I bet nuggets remind her of Becky, Becky would always get them for her and freen would complain she's on a diet but still eat them all, Becky went out of her way for Freen and Freen did the same.

I remember the time Becky was sick, this was the time they were dating and not married, I remember everyone was worried Freen would get sick too and Freen didn't care, she moved into Becky's house and stayed with her until Becky got better, Freen's love for Becky was insane, I just don't understand and I can't wrap my head around how freen supposedly fell out of love and now she's in this weird state.

Does Freen think I'm stupid?

Yeah she does and maybe sometimes I am, but this is really odd behaviour and I've been analysing her all evening, and I took a sniff when she came out of that bathroom, she did not take a shit.

Okay that's so odd of me to do myself but I'm curious.

Once we get home Freen straight away gets into bed, not caring what she had on, for the record we have another bedroom in the apartment but I chose to sleep with her because I'm kinda scared, what if I get kidnapped, Freen knows how to beat ass and I feel safe around her but right now she looks weak as hell.

I DO NOT FEEL SAFE.

All night I sat and texted Orm whilst Freen had slept beside me, we planned to go on holiday when I'm back, my lovers a bit jealous that I went away and I know she's missing me like crazy just as much as I'm missing her.

Then I remembered, Freen took her bag into the bathroom, she thinks I didn't notice but I did, I saw her take it but I didn't question it. She jumped so fast out of bed when I said I was going through her bag.

I have my Face ID on her phone, oh come on guys it's not me being a creep, we just did it for fun, she's got her Face ID on my phone too, we used to help each other send argumentative paragraphs to our girlfriends all the time, or I would correct Freen's spelling when she wanted to send Becky a love paragraph.

freen's dyslexic don't judge her.

I creep out of bed and tiptoe as silent as possible, this girl is sleeping like a rhino ain't no way she's gonna wake up, look at her mouth wide open as well, she would actually catch flies.

I head to her bag and use my phone torch to open it and pull out a paper

The first thing I read was to treat cancer pain

I opened her bag and checked the tub of pills shaking and then I dropped everything in shock, the pills scattered everywhere, my phone smashed to the floor and it was pitch dark

"LING LING WHAT HAPPENED"

Freen jumped out of her sleep

She turned her beside lamp on and saw me standing their with tears forming in my eyes, I couldn't speak

I gasped as I looked at her

"You you" i pointed at her and gasped

She stood up and looked down at the mess I've made

"It's not mine" she brushes it off and begins picking it up and putting it back

"Don't lie to me Freen, I know it's yours, you are unwell" I shake as I look at her my heart completely shattered, I felt weak, and terrified.

Freen didn't respond to me instead she grabbed my hand and slapped my phone back on it.

"It's not mine Chae"

I yelled at Freen for the first time ever so loud

"IT SAYS YOUR NAME ON THE PAPER" I hold it up and show her

"HOW WAS YOU EXPECTING ΜΕ TO LEAVE THIS FRIDAY IM CANCELLING MY TICKET" I open my phone with shaking fingers as I cry with anger and I wasn't able to cancel it anymore, I lost all my composure and I smashed my phone to the floor, I saw Freen flinch as she looked at me sympathetically

"I told you not to come for a reason Ling" Freen replies back

"What? So you was just going to go? Oh I see that's why you left Becky, because you left Thailand so we couldn't find you and you could just die out here, isn't it, you are so selfish, you wanted to leave us, you left your wife, you know what I knew you still loved her" I yelled at her

"I'm selfish? i left BECAUSE I LOVE YOU BOTH that's why I left, I LEFT SO YOU GUYS WOULDN'T HAVE TO DEAL WITH ME BEING SICK, I COULDN'T GIVE A FUCK ABOUT MYSELF, THATS WHY I DIDNT EVEN TAKE THIS STUPID MEDICATION IN THE FIRST PLACE, I DONT CARE ABOUT DYING ANYMORE MY CONCERN IS YOU AND BECKY, I WANTED YOU BOTH TO CONTINUE YOUR LIFE AND NOT HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT ME" she screams at me and I didn't have words to say.

"You better start taking this medication"

"Look at the state of me ling, I've become thin and I've just had cancer for a month or two and I already feel like shit, do you think I give a fuck about these little pills"

I ignored her and sat down on the end of the bed as I unscrunched the instructions note the doctor had given her with shaking hands, my tears made my vision blurry, and I was sniffling uncontrollably

"Take 2 of these and 3 of these right now or I'll phone Becky and tell her exactly where you are and why you left" I threaten her

"Your phones broken" Freen whispers

"Is now the time to be funny? you have cancer, this isn't a laughing matter"

"Take them now I'll actually call her and tell her everything she'd love to hear it and you know she has you wrapped around her finger, you love her to death and you fricking know it, so do as I say before I do"

"If I take them you'll tell no one, not even Orm"

"Not even Orm"

I hand over the meds and walk over to give her a glass of water

"Open your mouth I wanna check it's actually in their"

"You are worse than my dad" she sighs but once I see the medication I hand her the water and watch her take it.

Having a friendship like this is such a blessing 🥺