MOVE ON / FREENBECKY

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FREEN POV  ( present)

Now that becky knows everything I don't know if I've failed trying to protect her when that was my main aim. I guess that's why I beat billy's ass so hard.

Don't get me wrong, the day I found out Becky had been talking to jane and they started dating, I was so heart broken, I cried all night but remembered it was for the best, ling was scared to tell me but she knew it would make me feel at peace knowing Becky's trying again.

Ling walks out of bed like a zombie, with her hair all messy, her eyes squinted.

"Oh hi Becky, my alarm just went off again Freen you need to take your medication" she says to me, we haven't spoke since we had that little argument and I stormed off and drove to south Thailand but I love that we don't need to say anything and we just speak.

"Becky just gave it to me, go back to bed and get some rest" I smile at her which results into her smiling back knowing we just made up and that Becky's back into my life again

, I couldn't look at Becky properly in the eye, I felt too guilty, I felt horrible, even looking at her.

"Okay I'm gonna turn my alarm off, Becky you put yours on if your awake" Lingling says to Becky.

"Already done, you relax now you've done a lot, thank you" Becky says to lingling genuinely, the fact that Becky thanked her made me so happy because no matter how many outbursts I've had ling has been my right hand through everything, she knows my medication drives me mad and she knows I've lost hope so many times, yet she never lost hope.

"Okay I'm going and make sure you feed my babygirl" Lingling giggled before she came from behind and hugged me so tight, I turn my head so I can kiss her on the cheek

"Don't be jealous Becky, she's all yours" Lingling laughed as she walks back into my bedroom

Becky rolled her eyes playfully "Whatever" Becky says with laughter

"Night love you" Lingling shouts before going back to bed.

"Okay time for food, you got ingredients for a spag bowl?"

"Mmh hmm"

Becky gets up and leaves the living room as she walks through to the kitchen. I can't talk to her properly I just could see so much pain in her eyes, I know she didn't sleep all night looking for this doctor for me.

A while later lingling wakes up

"A spag bowl for breakfast, I'm not complaining" she laughs as Becky places the bowls in front of us.

"I want that bowl finished" she looks at me intimidatingly, I look down at the bowl and take it.

We sat in silence and all I could hear was lingling slurping and I begin laughing at lingling who watched me eat

"I feel intimidated why is it so silent in here, I can't slurp when it's this quiet"

Lingling began laughing at me

"You can't eat spaghetti politely, you were married to Becky for over 5 years just eat like a dog" Lingling laughs

"It's been a long time I feel awkward" I couldn't help but laugh at how stupid this situation was and having Becky not eat and slurp with us just made it worse.

"Has anyone told you that you two are the biggest weirdos I've ever met" Becky says as she looks at us and shakes her head

"I can't she's making me laugh" Lingling says as she places her bowl down

"Okay I'm going to go to Orm's since your awake, make sure she finishes her food and eat like dogs the two of yous understood" she says even though I didn't want Becky to go, I felt complete again.

She walked out and I wanted Becky to be proud of me and the fact that I ate so I made lingling send her a picture of my bowl being empty in which she replied to

Becky: did she actually? wow I'm so proud of my baby 🥺

I felt like a child literally but I felt happier today, compared to other days where it's felt lonely,

Maybe I can fight again. This time it would be for Becky's sake but I still need to keep it firm with Becky because I need to be aware of weather I'll be okay or not.

I've been messing around with my medication for far too long now and I don't know what the outcome may be going to The dr in America and that's why I can't be with her until then.

Becky: can you tell your babygirl to unblock my number now?

"Unblock it idiot" Lingling says

"I'm nervous" I respond, I actually am it's been so long and I still was in love with Becky so I felt like a school kid with a crush & I know my wife she's such a flirtatious person with me.

"Give me your phone I'll do it"

"NO NO NO" I scream

"You are such a chicken, you walk around like you are the thug of Thailand but when your with Becky, she has you on ropes, she'd tell you to lick the floor and you'll do it" Lingling begins clapping with laughter

"Not true actually"

"If I went south Thailand to get you, you would of told me to F off, but Becky went and you were back within the next hour or two, you are what the kids call a SIMP"

"NO IM NOT" I held my ears and laughed with lingling

What is this random burst of happiness I'm feeling? I just feel like a kid again.