Her reason: Bellamy Blake

Chapter 36

"I suck at this"

"You do" I glare at Bellamy who's next to me snicker at my horribly horrible job of patching sector seven.

"I'm a doctor not a patcher?" I stare at the wall. "Well I'm a guard and not a patcher and I'm doing a better job then you"

"Shut. Up" he chuckles and goes behind me grabbing my hand. It's like someone electrocuted me as I feel tingles all up my arm. Holding my breath as he leans closer.

"Like this" He moves my hand but I'm not paying attention. Not at all.

"Bellamy" I whisper and turn.

I love him. I love him and that scares me more than anything.

"Uh oh, full name" He smiles. I stare up at him. I want to spend the rest of my life with him. However short that is.

"You ok?" He asks.

"I really like you" I say. "I hope so" He laughs and I grab his hand. "No, I really like you" His smile slowly falls.

Oh no. Oh no he doesn't feel the same.

"Um, s-sorry, forget I said that. I have to go he-help Abby" I step back, clearing my throat as my stomach burns.

He doesn't like me. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid.

I speed off without waiting for an answer. Three weeks without him really made me realize how much I relied on him. I bite my lip as I feel a tear fall.

"Mel there you are" I wipe my nose and look up. "You alright?" Kane asks. I nod but my face says otherwise as more tears start falling. He looks around and grabs my arm pulling me into his office.

"What's going on?" "I-I'm so s-stupid" I choke out.

"Mel, start over what happened?" He puts his hands on my shoulders.

"I told Bellamy that I-" He patiently waits and someone walks in. I look down.

"Chancellor we need you" "Not now"

"But Si-" "Later" He says firmly and the person walks out.

"Shut the door" A shut and he's back. "I told him I liked him" I breathe out and he chuckles.

"Well I think that's obvious" He says. "I told him I really liked him" No surprise just waiting.

"You're not surprised?" I ask my voice squeaking. "No, should I? You two have been in love for a year. It's kind of crazy it took you guys this long"

"Doesn't matter, I screwed up. He doesn't like me" I breathe out a breath looking at the ceiling.

"Are you joking?" He says and I glare at him. "Do I look like I'm joking Kane!" He stares at me.

"What did he say? Do I need to kill him?" I let out a humorless chuckle. "He said nothing. His smile literally dropped! It dropped Kane "

"Maybe he was surprised?" he hums and I shake my head.

"I'm stupid. I'm not the kind of person someone falls in love with" my heart cracks for the millionth time.

It hurts. Even if it's the truth it still hurts.

"That's not true" "It is" I tilt my head swallowing hard.

"Saying something won't change anything" "It can't be true because I love you Mel" I look up at him my lip shaking. It really really hurts.

"You are the closest thing I've had to a daughter and I love you" I break. He pulls me in as I cry and cry.

"It h-hurts. Every single day" "I know, I know"