𝐖𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐃 ★ charles leclerc

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙥𝙩𝙚𝙧 𝙛𝙞𝙛𝙩𝙮 𝙛𝙞𝙫𝙚, charles/maisie

❝ my heart is yours, it's you that i hold on to. ❞
⇄ ◃◃ ⅠⅠ ▹▹ ↻

Charles

Pierre and I have been playing video games on our phones for the past hour as I'm still a little sick to go out. Him and Madelyn have been playing nurse with me ever since Maisie left yesterday.

"It's like she held my heart in her hands, squeezed it so hard it exploded and she put it back for me to glue it together again." I say, telling him about Maisie and I's little conversation yesterday morning before she left.

She's in love. With someone else.

I should be happy for her, and maybe a part of me is. But the other part is dying inside. Call it selfishness but I want her to love me, only me. Actually, I need her to love me.

"So, apart from that, how are you?" He brushes off as I pour my heart out to him.

"Yeah, great." I nod my head sarcastically as we wait for the new game to start.

"You look so."  He mocks.

"Thanks."

"But for real, it's been eight years, how can you still feel that way?" He genuinely questions, invested. "Do you know how long eight years are?" He asks, not searching for a respond, only making me think. "Everything changed for you guys."

"Nothing has changed." I deny.

He frowns, not understanding me. "You're both world champions, you're both the prodigies of F1, you're both—"

"None of that matters. My feelings have not changed. I still love her. No matter what happened, despite everything. I love her. Maybe even more than before." I admit.

I know I shouldn't. But how is it a controllable thing?

I love her with every neurone in my body. I love every piece of her.

The highly intellectual, reckless but precise driver in her, and the dumb, sarcastic girl who likes to write songs every once in a while.

Having her around yesterday, it simply reminded me how strong my feelings are. And how destructive they are...

"You're insane." He shakes his head, leaning back on the couch.

"I'm insane for being in love?"

"With a woman who hasn't batted an eye on you for eight years and is in a committed, loving relationship, yes you are."

Yeah, that's not so great...

The game starts and Pierre instantly hits full focus. I suck at this game so it makes Pierre excited since I'm the one who always wins when we race. At least I'm trying.

"Boom! Three down!" He jumps excitedly as he kills three people at the same time. I just chuckle, rolling my eyes.

I'm only playing because he was kind enough to help me these two days. Otherwise, we'd be playing F1 and I'd be beating his ass.

My phone dings mid game, I'm about to swipe the notification away but when her name appears, I freeze. We haven't texted since the break up. I still haven't changed her name on my phone.

I get out of the game, and hold my phone vertically to see what's up.

MY FRECKLES❤️