Insecurity (Edited)

Chapter 23: Lake House.

I was mentally, physically, and emotionally, but mostly physically, done with everything. I needed to clear my mind off of some things and I figured what could be a better way to spend some quality time with myself other than going to a lake house.

I wasn't going to stay for long, just the weekend's time. I was packing and Luke was sitting around watching me grab my things, "Are you sure you don't want me to come along ?", he asked, "Yes, Luke, I'm sure. Its only 3 days, don't worry about me.", I told him, "Why do you want to go anyways ?", he asked, "I told you, to clear my head from some things, I need some time alone.", I told him, "But its an hour drive from here and in an almost deserted place.", he was trying to make me stay, "At least take Blue with you.", he pointed to Blue and he barked, I smiled, I walked closer to Luke, "I'll be fine Luke, you and Blue can have fun while I'm gone, and call me if anything happens.", I told him, "Okay.", he nodded.

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I was done packing and loading my stuff into the car, I didn't take much, just some snacks and clothes that can stay with me for 3 days. Luke was with me in front of the car along with Blue, "Its only 3 days Luke, 2 days and a half and I'll be back.", I told him, he was holding my hand, "Call me when you get there.", he said, I nodded, "And don't open to strangers.", he added, I nodded again, "And don't go into the woods after sunset.", "Okay, Luke, I'll read a wood ranger manual and I will abide by it, calm down now.", I assured him, he grinned warmly, "I'll call you every few hours, just to check on you. And there might be a chance of rain today so don't go into the lake on a boat or anything.", he said, "Lucas.", I shot him a 'Seriously ?' look, "Fine, I'm sorry, just take care.", he kissed my cheek which probably made me look like I was 3 inches away from the sun, he chuckled and gave me a hug before letting me go.

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I got to my family's lake house in 45 minutes, the streets weren't that crowded today, which was good. My dad asked for this lake house before he passed away 2 years ago, it was hard accepting it but I managed, my family would come here during some holidays, maybe even alone if they wanted to. I set my things in the living room and I walked about the place, the lake house was here ever since I was 7 but the last time I came here was high school Senior year. I miss this place. I didn't bother cleaning up a room upstairs because I was going to sleep in the living room. Believe it or not I wish I had brought someone along with me because I was kind of scared.

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After settling in I took out my phone and called Luke, it didn't take a full ring on the other side for him to answer, "Rebs!", he answered cheerfully;

Me: Hey.

Him: You made it there safe ?

Me: Yes, Luke, I did.

Him: Good, what are you planning to do ?

Me: Just some time alone, which reminds me, I don't want you or anyone to call.

Him: Why ?

Me: Because I need some time alone Luke, please understand that.

Him: Hmm. Okay, yea sure. Call me if you need anything though.

Me: I will, thanks Luke.

Him: See you soon Rebs.

We hung up and I went outside to the dock, there was a bench set over there, the lake looked so still and calm. I walked past the bench and sat on the dock, I took off my shoes and I dipped my leg in the cool water, it might be late November but I liked the lake during this time. I would have gone for a swim but Luke would strangle me if I came back sick. I smiled at the thought of that, he really cares. But what about me ? He's treating me like I'm some sort of a royal item while I'm just here doing nothing about it. And despite that he has no intentions of taking me for his pleasure, he was slowly getting into my head about the whole relationship thing, maybe I should give him a chance, but then if people found out that Rebecca Forde is in a relationship they would hold things against me. Why do I care about what others thing anyways ? God, I hate being so insecure and scared about so many things.