Insecurity (Edited)

Chapter 36: Deep Talks.

(Rebecca)

I woke up to the plane shaking, we just landed in Prague, and 2 hours of sleep was definitely not enough for me. I groaned and I sat up which drew Luke's attention to me, "You okay ?", he asked, I nodded, "Did you sleep well ?", he asked, "Sort of.", I told him, I didn't realize our hands were still locked, I didn't mind it though, I didn't let go, neither did he.

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We got off the plane, took our bags and we headed to the hotel. It was a very cute interior design, sure it might be just a living room, 2 bathrooms, a bedroom, and a kitchen but it was unlike the other hotels we stayed in before we come here, this one is modern-designed, not too fancy or too normal, its just perfect. I enter the room and there is only one bed, "I thought it was double-bedded.", I told Luke, "Well you are having trouble sleeping alone so I figured why not cuddle it every night since it helps you sleep.", he said, and he sounded so okay with it, "And you're fine with it ?", I asked, "I guess, I can just go down and ask to switch rooms if you want.", he said, "No, no, its fine.", I told him, "Now, I know its 2:30 pm, which means we are supposed to be going sightseeing but, we won't go to so many places like we always do, instead, you are going to sleep for a bit, make up for the hours you couldn't sleep before.", he told me, "It doesn't matter Luke, I'm fine.", I assured him, "Rebecca you have bags under your eyes from how less you sleep and you can barely stay fully awake during mid-day. Look at you now, you might have slept 2 hours on the plane but I know you too well. You need to rest and to rest you will, whether you like it or not.", he took off his coat and his shoes and he jumped on the bed and under the covers, "Now come on, get your butt on the bed and sleep for a bit would you.", he insisted, I just did what he said because you cannot talk Luke out of such things, even if you had the most valid reasons, he would still beat you to another reason for something. I hung my coat aside and I crawled in next to Luke and its the same like every night before, my face is in his chest and his arms around me. "I'm doing this because I care Rebs, I can't have you collapse in public because you are sleep-deprived.", he whispered, "Thank you Luke.", I snuggled into his chest a bit and I dozed off.

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(Lucas)

I couldn't help but stare at her as she slept so peacefully in my arms, its kind of making me happy that I can put her to sleep but I am also troubled because I can't get to her and know what is bothering her. I am no psychologist but I know she is hiding something and she refuses to let it out, its a possibility that she might be a bit embarrassed to let it out but what could I do ? I just have to wait for her, and if I have to wait for her for eternity I would. I stare down at her, all snuggled into me and I just couldn't help but plant a gentle kiss on her forehead, if only I can express my love for her without fearing a rejection, we might still be working on all those hinting and stuff like that but rejection can still be there through it all and it could just ruin everything, I don't want to lose her, I can't lose her.

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It was 4 pm now, Rebecca woke up on her own and woke me up and she seemed more energetic than I am, "Luke wake up! I want to explore Prague!", she exclaimed, "Can you give me a minute to actually be able to open my eyes first ?", I asked, "Oops, sorry.", she giggled, I smirked and I looked at her, sitting on the edge of the bed all happy and excited. I got up and got ready and we went sightseeing.

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We were on Charles Bridge right now, I gave her my camera and told her to take some pictures of her own, let her have some fun, I just stood aside and watched her take pictures, she looks adorable when she is so concentrated on something. "Rebs!", I called her, "Lets go.", I told her, "But I like it here.", she whined, "We can come again later. Right now, we have to go to Prague's National Gallery.", I told her, "A Museum ?", she gasped, I nodded, "Lets go!", she pulled me by the hand into a taxi and she told the driver where to take us.

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We walked about the gallery and every piece of art, every painting, every sculpture, every structure just catches her attention and leaves me in awe, she looks like a little kid exploring things for the first time. She might have seen them before but she only saw pictures of them not the real thing, and she just looks so adorable when she does it. She was staring at some painting by Picasso and I had just got back with some water for the both of us, I walked to her and placed a hand on her shoulder, "Come on Rebs, the place is closing.", I told her, she nodded, she looked back at the art-piece, then she walked away with me.

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Instead of going back to the hotel we walked around the city aimlessly, we just walked until we decided to rest for a bit in some small ally. We shared a sandwich and we just talked. We rest our heads back on the wall and we talked.

It went silent after a while though, we were laughing and smiling at so many things, it was like we were almost drunk but we weren't. "Hey, remind me again, why are you not interested in dating or relationships ? Not to be rude or curious or anything, but just why ?", I asked her, she bit on her lips a bit, "I never really told you this, even back in high school, so I guess you should know now.", she said, "Okay.", I turned my head in her direction and listened, "Honestly, I don't know. I just never saw myself in a relationship, not back in high school or right now. I never imagined myself being loved and cared about so much by someone.", she began, I just want to interrupt her and tell her 'I freaking care about you, I cared about you way before we even become freshmen in high school. ', "I guess back in high school no one asked me out because I rarely hung out with girls outside of the school and I rarely wore all girly and stuff. It was mostly you that I hung out with and spent so much time around.", she smiled, I chuckled lightly, "Besides, I was that weird, nerdy girl in high school who did all her homework, submitted the work before time, wore glasses and braces. I don't think I seemed appealing to anyone.", she continued, "So I didn't really have an interest grow in me about such things.", she finished, "But you shouldn't have thought like that Rebs. Even back in high school you were gorgeous, sure you had braces and medical glasses but you still looked pretty, and you're pretty now.", I told her, "Thanks Luke. But I don't know if my point of view about dating is going to change, maybe its not a meant-to-be for me.", she said, "Besides, being in a relationship ties you down. Look at the Riley and the other girls back in New York, they rarely travel now, its only once or twice a year or if its a mandatory work. Their husbands and boyfriends are locking them here, if they travel then it would be inside the United States.", she added, "It kind of irritates me that if I was in a relationship I wouldn't be able to travel as much as I do now.", she finished, "Don't say that, I am trying to show you how loving someone can feel and you seem just fine with it. Even when your cheeks heat up and you feel uncomfortable when I cuddle you to bed, you seem completely okay.", I told her, "And come on, not all guys lock their girls up in the city they live in, some guys just like surprising them with a trip here or there.", I added, I wish I could tell her more, tell her how I actually feel instead of that night in Visual Clue's gathering, I only said three words to her and walked away. We went silent after that, "Lets go back, shall we ?", I asked, "Sure.", we got up and we headed back to the hotel.

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I was already under the blanket waiting for Rebecca to put away some clothes and clean around her belongings. She finished and she slid under the blanket next to me. We gazed into each other's eyes for a minute, "You think my point of view will change about dating and relationships and such things ?", she asked-whispered, "People come around eventually Rebs, I know you will. I came around many things I thought I wouldn't do, its fine.", I assured her, she went silent, she pursed her lips and looked away, I gently grabbed her chin and directed her gaze back into mine, "Don't be so down Rebs. Any guy would be lucky to have you.", I told her, "And you're beautiful. You always have, always will. Don't let anyone tell you otherwise.", I leaned into her and planted a kiss on her forehead. I look at her and she is blushing lightly and heating up, I smirked and I pulled her into me and we just slept.

Writer's Note: Chapter 36! Wow, 2 days since my last update, I feel like a bad person now, sorry for not updating guys, I thought my last update was last night and then when I check right now I see 2 days ago. I will make it up by publishing better chapters, longer, more interesting, hopefully the thinking side of my brain is in my favor when I do that, and hopefully I stop procrastinating. Meanwhile, enjoy this chapter x