Midnight Pleasure

24

"Can you please stop staring at me?"

I glared at Nate who was eating his breakfast while he's ogling me like he was observing me under a microscope, hoping I'd make a reaction to his gaze.

"I just don't understand you, Alecsandra," he muttered and continued eating his breakfast. He even frowned at me and looked at his plate and sighed heavily. The dark circles around his eyes were also notable. Mukhang hindi ito nakatulog ng maayos kagabi.

Ni hindi man lang nito itinatago sa akin ang pagmamaktol nito magmula pa kagabi. I thought when we had dinner, he'd be fine since we kind of talked about what's happening to us, but no. He was frowning the entire time, asking me what the hell was I saying.

Akala ba niya, siya lang ang nagtatanong kung ano ang sinabi ko kagabi?

Kung puwede ko nga lang bawiin iyon, ginawa ko na, e! But I can't and I came up with that idea because... I am really affected by what's happening to us, but I still want to follow my dad's rules.

It's absurd, though.

Maybe it's just I don't want to fully give in, but I wanted it, too?

I looked at Nate and I wanted to yell at him that it was because of what he was doing, I ended up saying those things! Kung hindi kasi kung anu-ano ang ginagawa nito sa akin, hindi ko naman maiisip ang mga bagay na iyon!

"Then don't think about it, just eat your breakfast," I replied and he looked at me again. I tried my best to keep a straight face when he's frowning, pouting his lips a little, looking so confused right now.

God! Bakit naman naging cute na sa paningin ko ang lalaking ito?

"I can't see the point of what you said," sabi nitong muli at tumingin sa akin. "Why dry humping when in just a swift movement, I will be inside you and–"

"Nathaniel!" pinanlakihan ko siya ng mga mata. "Can you just eat?" asik kong muli sa lalaki na nginusuan ako bago nagyuko para kumain.

I breathed heavily and shook my head. I didn't know Nate and I will come to this part of our lives that we'll be talking about this thing!

Mas okay pa yata noong nag-aaway lang kami dahil sa mga walang kuwentang bagay, e.

"Look, I know that you're confused about it, but I said what I wanted to say, okay? Take it or leave it. Take it, we will do it, leave it, we will not... and you will need to stop kissing me." Parang tinatambol ang dibdib ko habang sinasabi iyon at nakatingin kay Nate na seryoso ang tingin sa akin.

"I'll go get dressed now, leave the dishes on the table, ako na ang maglilinis mamaya," sabi ko pa sa kaniya at tumayo na para dumiretso na sa kuwarto ko para makaligo at makapagbihis.

Good thing was there was enough food last night to reheat today for our breakfast. Iyon na lang din ang mga ininit ko para makakain muna kaming dalawa ngayong umaga.

I walked towards the bed and sat down. Halos hindi rin ako nakatulog nitong nagdaan na gabi dahil sa sinabi ko kay Nate.

I mean, who would've freaking thought that I would offer to do dry humping with someone? If my brother knew about this, he would strangle my neck! Kapag nalaman ni Daddy, malamang ay paalisin pa ako nito sa Pilipinas o kaya naman tanggalin ako sa Praesidium, e.

"What the hell was I thinking?" I leaned on my headboard and sighed heavily. I really can't talk to anyone right now about what's going on.

Clearly, I can't tell anything to my brother.

Hindi ko rin puwedeng sabihin sa mga pinsan ko, kapag sinabi ko kay Airi, malalaman ng lahat iyon. Kapag sinabi ko kay Keij, maging ang lola namin ay malalaman ang sinabi ko at sigurado akong malilintikan ako kina Tito Hunter at Tito Thunder.