Are You Afraid of Musicals?

Chapter 5.1: Trust

Gabby's pov:

I'm jolted up by the annoying sound of my alarm, I groan as I try to reach the nightstand next to my bed to reach my phone and turn it off without opening my eyes, but after a few unsuccessful attempts I finally roll on my bed to take my phone.

As I turn off the alarm the hour shows up on the screen, making me groan again. It's too soon, way too soon for the night I had.

I try to be positive and think that I'm two days school will be finally over and I'll be finally able to sleep as much as I want, but I'm way to exhausted to feel any better.

Yesterday I went to Dani's to help her study for her finals and... she's screwed. The principal only gave her three days to study for everything and though he's "doing her a favor" by letting her the exams, what he did is just cruel.

Dani told me that she even showed him her hand, trying to gain a little time or at least to get some compassion, but he went straight to force her to take oral exams instead.

I hate oral exams, I get nervous trying to remember everything on the spot and words just don't come out, so I can't imagine how Dani is going to prepare everything in the two days we have left, but I'm determined to help her.

She's actually a really fast learner. Yesterday we went for the basics of everything, things that are indispensable for her to know if she wants to get deeper into the subjects and she did great.

We even had time to start with some exam like exercises of Chemistry and Math, which I was not expecting cause I know that the afternoon was really tough for her.

I know she's nervous, I know she's barely holding herself together, but she tries to hide it anyways and it's difficult for me to see her doing that again.

I don't know if it's because she does not want me to see her being vulnerable or because she knows she does not have time to "loose" on a breakdown, maybe it's a mix of both, but it feels like a step back and even if she's doing her best to hide it, I know that something's up and I'm not only talking about the exams.

Yesterday when we finally decided that it was enough for the day because we were both falling asleep, she drove me back home and I got directly into my bed, thinking that I'd be passed out almost immediately but not even at 2:30 am I was able to sleep.

I spent the night going back to my study session with Dani, how her body was tense all the time, how she slightly panicked each time she didn't catch something at the first try... She's not nervous about the exams, she's afraid.

Once again my head went back to her parents and that phone call, but I quickly took that off my mind. Getting angry and worrying was not going to help Dani, so instead I spent the night thinking about a better study strategy until sleep finally took over my body.

I didn't sleep much but I'm happy cause a few ideas came to my mind and I think that they can actually work, so without grieving on it much more, I finally get up, dress up and then I gather all the things I need for today, throwing them into my backpack.

When I'm finally done my backpack looks like it's going to explode, but it's fine. I mean people are probably going to shot me weird looks because exams are over and literally no one needs a backpack on the last days, we don't have nothing to do, but I'll just ignore them.

Since I joined Dani's group and played the final with the soccer team my reputation has definitely gone up, but at the end of the day I guess I'll be always be seen as the teacher's suck up and I've grown not to care in the slightest, so if they're going to look, let them look.

I'm surprised myself with how confident I just sounded, but I actually like this slightly new version of me. My anxiety is still a problem sometimes and I overthink a lot when I think that someone I care about is acting weird around me, but people that don't know me? I don't know when this happened, but I don't care about what they think.