Are You Afraid of Musicals?

Chapter 5.7: Home

Dani's pov:

After a whole night of not being able to sleep for a single minute I finally decide to get up, giving up on the possibility of getting some sleep when I open my eyes to find the room full of light, the morning summer sun illuminating the room.

I've been trying to get up for a few hours now, but each time I decided to do it I would look down at Gabby peacefully sleeping with her head resting on my chest and I just couldn't do it, afraid that I might wake her up and disrupt her calmness, witch is such a contrast to her distressed state of last night.

Everything was going nice, I was lightly drunk and having a great time, she was with her friends and she was happy too, but then those idiots had to make their entrance.

At first I was able to manage the situation and I was stupid enough to think that I had put them in their place, but of course messing with West High queen and her sidekicks would have consequences.

I was heading to the kitchen, stupidly happy cause Gabby told us that she was going to be with us soon and I spotted Jadah looking at me. At first I really didn't give it much of a thought, but now... now I think that this was all her idea, or at least she started it cause in that group nothing happens without Sharlize's approval.

I'm still not entirely sure about it, but I sure had a lot of time this night to think about it... to think about everything.

Once again the image of him making out with Gabby comes to my mind, making me close my eyes shut for a second before deciding to get up.

I carefully maneuver my way out of the bed, carefully taking Gabby's head and placing it gently on the pillow, proceeding to readjust the blankets over her so she can be comfortable.

After doing that I go directly to the bathroom, splashing cold water to my face a couple of times to get that stupid moment out of mi head, but it just won't go away.

Cause if I'm being honest, the moment I saw them everything was over for me. I immediately closed off, my walls went up and Gabby was dead for me.

It might sound harsh, I hadn't even heard what did she have to say about the whole situation, but in that moment as I was making my way towards the bathroom my head was going too fast to even stop to think that what I saw made no sense.

But in that moment I didn't care. I saw what I saw, I opened myself to her thinking this time would be different only for her to give herself to the first hot guy that approached her. In that moment I thought that she had just approached me to be popular, maybe even to finally have her revenge for all those years where I was such a bitch to her and her friends.

I know Gabby would never do that, I know that even thinking of that was so stupid, but in that moment I fully believed it, because that made hating her much easier.

I convince myself that I hated her, that I didn't care and that I had never cared about her, cause I refused to feel abandoned again. I refused to feel like I had opened up to someone, that I tried my best to change, that I gave all I had in me only to see all my hopes being crushed before my eyes once again.

I don't even know why I went to the bathroom, I knew I was not going to be able to lock the door, but in that moment I was not me. My body was working on autopilot as my mind rushed through all the moments I spent with Gabby and my initial anger, disbelief and betrayal turned into confusion.

I didn't want to think about her, I just wanted to forget and never admit that I had trusted her, but my heart refused to cooperate. My brain was telling me that I saw what I saw, that she betrayed me and that I had been right since the beginning, knowing that letting people in only gets you hurt.