Are You Afraid of Musicals?

Chapter 4.4: Deserve her

Gabby's pov:

It's been almos 15 minutes since I arrived home. My mom drove me and then headed to work, and the first thing that I did when I crossed the door, was heading straight to my room.

I've been sitting on my bed since then , my mind racing and my heart pounding wildly into my chest, until the sound of a notification brought me back to reality.

~Last call, you coming?~

Now I'm basically staring at my phone, reading the message again and again not knowing what to do. Well, I know what to do but I don't know if I should.

Dani's conversation with her parents affected me to a vary deep level, I need to know what Gina knows, but I don't think I'm in the mood of hanging out after what I've heard.

But then what Gina said earlier comes back to my mind "She's been kind of out since..."and I can only wonder if she knows something that I don't.

I haven't talked with Dani since last Monday, since I told her to leave the bathroom, but maybe Gina has. Maybe Gina knows how she's been since our fight.

Cause I hate it, but I'm worried. I already was, but after what I've heard? I remember the empty bottles in her drawer, I remember how she spent the last weeks basically drunk.

Now she disappears, she's missing classes and finals, and the first sign of her that I have in 2 weeks is that conversation with her parents and the bloody hole she left in the mirror.

"If you disappoint me again I'll give you a real reason to miss your clases."

That sentence, her mother's voice when she spit it out, is glued into my mind. Just thinking about what she could mean by that making me feel sick.

That thought makes me put my attention back on my phone again and before I can stop myself, I'm telling Gina that I'm in.

I don't have to wait for her answer more than a few minutes, standing up when I get the text as she tells me that they're already turning around to pick me up.

So I get to the wardrobe and I pick my yellow dress and my black leather jacket, adjusting my little heart shaped necklace as I look to my reflection on the mirror when I'm done dressing up.

I was not a big fan of dresses or skirts but with the cast, it's much easier for me to just wear them and actually, I'm starting to feel much more comfortable and confident in them.

I smile at my reflection and then I go to the bathroom to do my make up, not applying much but just enough to feel great with myself.

Just as I finish the final touches, I hear a honk and I make my way down the stairs, leaving a note for my mum in case she gets home before me.

I know I could just text her, but leaving little notes is what we've always done and somehow it's become our little thing, it feels good to share this with her.

So when I'm done I pin the note to the fridge and I head towards the door, opening it and then closing it behind me, walking towards EJ's car and smiling when I see Gina opening the door for me.

Durning the drive we talk and laugh, updating each other with what's been going on in this nearly two weeks, but I must admit that I got lost myself into my head a few times. I have to know what Gina knows, I have to know if she's been with Dani or if she closed off and she's completely on her own.

But I can't just ask her directly.

When she tried to tell me I told her that I was not interested, an stupid attempt of convincing myself that I didn't care about Dani anymore, and now I wish I had let her talk.