Are You Afraid of Musicals?

Chapter 7.6(1): Misunderstood

Gabby's pov:

My head has been restless since yesterday.

I could barely sleep last night, I think I was still a little bit in shock when Gina and I  finally arrived to her house, so I just dragged myself to her room and sat on her bed, knowing that she was concerned and wanted an explanation, but needing an extra few seconds to breathe.

Gina sat by my side in silence, not really knowing how to act as she didn't really know what had happened, but being there for me and being patient, giving me my time to speak as always.

And after a few minutes that I used to try organize the mess of information and feelings that were going on into my head, I told her what had happened, what I overheard, and Gina...

I think she didn't believe me.

The moment that thought crosses my head I shake it, instantly feeling bad and coming out of my head for a brief second, barely registering the teacher's voice explaining something I don't even find the sense of  before drifting again.

It's not that Gina didn't believe me, she's my best friend and I know that she does trust me but... I don't know, she seemed... hesitant.

Because I told her everything.

I told her how I had overheard Andrea. How  she'd called her a mistake, how she claimed she wasn't her daughter. I told her about the "fight" with Alex, about what Andrea threw in his face, about him cheating, about how I thought that betrayal was the reason she even existed.

Until that point everything was good, but then I told her about the surgery, about how Andrea kept insisting on it, and the worst part, the part I can't get out of my head... I told her how Andrea said she didn't care if she survived or not.

And Gina...

Gina listened, she always listens... but I could see the difference.

She let me spill it all out, every detail, every word that was stuck into my head and that had been burning into me from the moment I heard them. She sat there, nodding and looking at me with a thoughtful expression, probably trying to piece everything together too.

But I know Gina and I could see that the more I talked, the deeper I went into the surgery subject... the more doubts formed into her head.

Because I know she believed the first part, she actually said the cheating thing made sense, that it would explain why Andrea is so cold to her, why she hates her so much.

Gina could accept that and it actually made sense to her, but the other part? The part where Andrea wanted her gone?

That's where I lost her.

Because the moment I said it out loud something shifted and I could almost feel the split inside her: her heart believed me, completely, because I was me, because she knew I wouldn't lie about something like this. But her mind, the rational, logical part of her... it hesitated.

And that made her doubt.

She started trying to smooth it out the moment I stoped talking, trying to give it another angle, giving it no second thought and saying that maybe I had heard wrong, that maybe what I had overheard was out of context, that maybe Andrea was lashing out because she'd had a bad day...

And I know she didn't mean to dismiss me, she was just trying to make sense of something senseless, but it still hurt a little.

And that's not even the worst part.

Because it wasn't just that she was hesitant, it was that as she was trying to look for an explanation, she slipped into her meltdown voice.

And I know that voice too well.