assassins // calum hood

31. i wish you knew her

few hours had passed but nothing changed, calum still woke up to a miserable life.

he found himself sitting with luke and niall, watching someone talk.

"i wish you guys know what wolf is like,
i wish you witnessed her smile,
i wish you knew her.
because if you didn't then you missed an awful lot." zayn walked away from the place where a micstand was located, giving his final words about wolf.

this made calum weep even more, he was hiding his swollen eyes with a pair of black glasses.

luke who was holding a tissue, shook calum to remind him that it was his turn to give his speech.

calum cleared his throat, after hours and hours of crying, his voice was cracked. "wolf, she was nothing like anyone in the world-she was my true love. at first, I didn't think she was pretty or anything, considering the fact that she was just an ordinary face but as i looked closer, there i found myself forgetting to breathe because of her beauty. and her smile, if everyone had that smile, there should've been no war.

"she was my light, i didn't care what is her ethnicity or her religion-I didn't care because you know what only mattered? it was her and only her. and today, in my heart, nothing else would matter, it would still be her. no matter how hard i try, she's in everything i do. i couldn't even stand the smell of coffee this morning. i couldn't stand to look at those puppies.

"like zayn said, i wish you knew her. i wish you talked to her and acknowledged the different timbre of her voice, i wish you felt her skin touched yours because that's what keeps me breathing and i'll remember her because she found a secure place in my heart."

everyone in the place felt something strange in their stomachs as they wiped the little tears away from their red eyes.

fox and hyena was sobbing with their heads together. you couldn't have guessed that a whole group of tough assassins would cry over someone. but they did, even the boys.

they weren't ready.

luke tapped calum's shoulder with sympathy, "bro. please be well."

calum closed the car's door as luke ignited the engine. calum wasn't capable of driving this time.

he was going back home. the thing he had been wanting when he first set foot to the warehouse, but right now, he wished he could go back to start. he didn't feel happy for being able to go home, finally.
he didn't feel happy for the members and the deactivation of their black dots.

nothing really mattered anymore, he was just staring into a black and white world with dark corners and little spiders.

wolf wasn't anywhere to light up the universe or color the world with her smile. she wasn't there anymore.

calum entered the house with a blank look on his face. his mother blabbered about his college career and how his dad made it possible for him to attend school again. but none of these kept him interested or alive. something inside him had died with wolf.