assassins // calum hood

32. no crying-please

days had passed and what he only did was sleep and sleep. he wanted to sleep forever because- in some dreams, wolf somehow managed to appear. and it helped him erase his thoughts.

sleep had been his companion.

until one day, his father entered his room with a mad look on his face. "calum! we're sending you to a psychiatrist! you're not getting any better."

"i told you, i don't need to go there!" calum yelled back, burying his head on the pillow-an action that reminded him of wolf again.

"get ready!"

"you think i'm fucking crazy? i'm not!" calum answered, sitting down on the bed, wiping his dried tears away.

"young man, you do nothing! you just sleep-all month. that's it. we're getting enough of this."

calum went back to sleep, his father was telling him something but he was too tired to listen to it.

he wasn't fond of this anymore, waking up everyday and having thoughts about wolf. getting lectures from his mother and getting yelled at by his dad. he wasn't fond of his sister telling him that there's a girl she's like him to meet.

he was getting tired of almost-everything.

scratched that.

he was tired of everything.

the truth is, the pain was still there, it wouldn't go away. calum didn't want it to go away. he wanted it to stay because that was the only thing he was holding unto.

his thoughts ran free as he took his gun from his closet. the feel of the gun reminded him again of wolf. he lost his other half, he knew he couldn't survive in a world without her so why should he make himself suffer more?

pointing to his head, he swallowed a lump in his throat, sending him goosebumps everywhere.

go on calum, pull it. the pain wouldn't last and you'd be with her again. isn't that what you want?

with a little pull of the trigger, everything turned black-the kind of black he saw when he was called.

his sister's voice echoed into his head.

he's soooo cute but i feel so sad for him. where is his mom? or his sister? why is he alone? i hope his father is looking for him. oh calum, let's take care of that bird, we'll name him wafer, we'll feed him everyday and we'll take him to the playground so he can be happy, can be happy.

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mom, dad, mali

i love you so much.

you helped me- i know you tried. i know i'm being such a fraud, you want me to be strong and just carry on to the world but what you didn't know is that wolf was my strength and now she's gone, i can't feel anything anymore.

i tried to cope, i'm sure you know it. remember when i tried to go to college again? thank you dad. but you see, i'm not capable of anything anymore.

i want you to know that this is not your fault or anybody's fault. i just want to escape from this cold world. i don't know where the fuck i'd be but please-bury me beside wolf's grave. that's the only thing i ask of you oh and please- no crying, please.

i love you!

-c

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okay this is the end. T_T

im crying while writing this

anyway there is another ending so that we can all be happey togetha foreva