Niyara pov
"you knew i was in a toxic friendship because you were in the same one so you tricked me into being your best friend knowing that i was ready to leave you listened to my love language
just to get close to me then you prayed on my vulnerability you knew i didn't have sex in a long time and you knew you were the closest nigga to me so with a little bit of prying and pillow talking you got your way
your fucking sick dawg i loved you i fucking love you not for what you could do for me but for you and your telling me i was your friend because i was beneficial and fucking convenient don't you know how that makes me feel
it makes me feel like you never fucking loved me back or that that's all our relationship is gonna be based on and i love having sex with you but if us doing that for convenient to we don't have to see each other at all anymore for real
because emotional manipulation is one thing a lot of people do it by accident but physical is just a bit much for me" he shook his head "Nini i really do love you and our relationship wasn't based on convenience
you ever see a really nice fucking person and wanna become their friend because you need that energy in your life that's what this was i never meant to make you feel like that you just got caught up in the bullshit i call my baggage
i was broken and didn't know how to treat you right and i'm sorry" i shook my head "your saying sorry but your not doing anything to change and haven't you cut me off for a bitch dawg"
"i didn't cut you off for a bitch i asked for a break because i needed space for myself" "needing time for yourself means you need to be alone from everybody to get your mind back right but from what ive been seeing
you were going to parties hanging out with your niggas and posting your girl in your close friends maybe i might be crazy but i think im the only person you needed space from and your a funny mufucka for that
when im not even the type you have to act like that towards ive been asking you for months why your acting the way you are and never got a direct answer when you could have just kept it a stack with me from the beginning
i love you and depended on you being there so excuse me if im out of line for thinking i at least deserve you telling me you weren't happy" he huffed "i ain't never said that i wasn't happy
to be honest i don't know why i asked for space that shit was dumb because i tried calling you a week later and that when i thought i was blocked
my heart never dropped that hard in my life thinking i lost you almost made me crash the fuck out" i looked at him crazy "then why do you do the thing you do all i have ever asked for is respect and communication
and i can never get that from you i was never the type to scream or get angry but i feel like you bring the worst out of me and for that i don't think we should be friends anymore"
he look taken back "you don't mean that Niyara people fuck up and not every relationship or friendship is gonna be 100 percent all the time i'm gonna fuck you are going to fuck up but we are supposed to work through it"
"my mans is been 9 fucking months we have been beefing non fucking stop since july you do whatever you want and expect me to be cool with it but you get jealous when i talk to other niggas
you lash out at me for no reason talk to me crazy why the fuck should i keep giving you so many chances that you don't fucking deserve i'm tired" he came closer to me and grab my hands
"Niyara look i ain't never finna be perfect and i never lied to you about that so all i can promise you is to do better you are important to me and i don't wanna loose you and stop thinking about what
everybody else told you how do you feel right now do you really wanna stop talking to me like be completely honest" i huffed because no i don't i was just taught that if a man constantly
does shit to you that you don't need to be with or around him anymore because he has no concept for your health or well being "i don't wanna leave but your pushing me away i'm not going to stay somewhere im constantly
disappointed and disrespected you can treat every other bitch like that but not me i have morals and standards that's i've already put to the side for you and im not doing that anymore"
"give me one more chance please no more shit will happen i promise like i was gonna talk to you anyway you say all our problems happen because of sex well me and my girl are happy so we can just get back to the old us
just friends"
my heart sank but maybe this is better maybe i was right maybe we do need to stop "fine one more chance but after this if you fuck up again i'm beating your ass and blocking you and if you try to find me or contact me i'm beating your ass again"
he smiled and hugged me but that quickly got him pushed "i said fine i never said we were cool you gotta work for that i keep telling you im not the other bitches in your life you think you had to work hard to get me it's gonna take even longer to apologize"
