His Second Addiction

Chapter 44

After two years~

Aaran:

I'm sitting in my office, working on some papers which is almost done. After finishing it I lifted my head looking at the photo frame on my desk. Aaidah's picture on my desk. This has been on my desk since I have rebuilt my office building, my reputation, career, everything. It took me one year to gain back my respect in the business world. Once again I'm famous all over the world. I didn’t clear out my name that I didn’t do the plagiarism nor I apologised.

I just worked hard again and made everyone believe it was a mistake which won't happen again. That's why it took one year for me to accomplish everything what I had lost that day. I didn’t clear my name because Aaidah wanted me to suffer. I could have done it easily and show proof too that I was innocent but I didn’t do it. I suffered, I worked hard, I listened to people judging me, rejecting my deals, looking down on me, treating me like an outcast.

Though these all are nothing compared to the pain I have caused Aaidah. In fact these things didn’t effected me that much so it would be wrong to say that I actually suffered. But I can't explain how much it hurts me everyday not to have her by my side. I miss her so much. At first I thought I would be able to handle it. But with each passing days my feelings gets more uncontrollable. I yearn to see her face, her smile, hear her voice, to see her beside me everyday, to touch her. Most importantly I yearn for her forgiveness.

It's been exactly two years since I last saw her. I never contacted her. Nor she did which is understandable. After what I did, she would never contact me. Though I keep in contact with her family but only with her maa. Her baba and Azir doesn’t talk to me. They ignore me like I don't exist. It was hard to even talk to her maa but I earned it. I begged for her forgiveness. Then finally after eight months she forgave me. She doesn’t meet with me. She only talks to me on the phone. She tells me how is baba and Azir, how Aaidah's business is going which is being handled by her secretary and her baba mostly. She is absent yet her company won many awards in these two years. Sometimes it makes me wonder if her secretary or baba talks to her. Maybe that's how her business is still running so well.

“Again lost in your thought?” I came back to reality by Ahren's voice. As usual this guy never knocks before coming inside. I shoot him a glare and he just grinned at me. Wallahi if he wasn’t my sister's husband then I would've kill him already. ’You wouldn’t be able to do that cause he is your best friend.’ My subconscious mind reminded me. I groaned in annoyance then called my secretary to send two cups of coffee.

Ahren sat on the couch, staring at me. I looked at him raising my eyebrows in confusion. “When did you realize that you genuinely love her?” Ahren asked suddenly making me speechless for a while but I composed myself. “After I had to stay away from her for 24 months, 730 days, 17520 hours, 1051200 minutes, 63072000 seconds.” Ahren kept looking at me, his mouth open in shock. “You fucking counted the minutes and seconds too?!” Ahren said more like yelled.

I glared at him but because he cursed. “Oh right- sorry. I forget that you don't curse anymore nor you like to hear it.” I changed a lot. I left the mafia job, that position of a leader. It was hard to leave with the continuous threats throwing on me regarding my family. I would have never been able to leave if Ahren didn’t help me. In the underground world Ahren is more feared and respected than me. So because of him things got somehow easy and I left all that.

The reason behind doing so is because I started praying Salah again. Maa told me if I want to repent genuinely and want something so badly then I will have to leave all the bad jobs, bad habits. So I left everything. I don't even smoke. I don't curse. I don't behave rudely with anyone. Even if someone says anything to me, I just give them a smile and leave from there. I repent for my sins everyday. I pray for Aaidah to come back everyday even in Tahajjud prayer. Maa told me no prayers remain unaccepted in Tahajjud. So I learned how to pray Tahajjud from maa and now I pray Tahajjud everynight.