His Second Addiction

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You guys don't vote neither engage with my reels properly yet you guys expect me to update soon. I have so many things going on in my life which drain me out but still I write for you guys. Even after working hard on writing a chapter or making a reel, I don't get enough reach nor any comments or votes. It's the usual same few people who continuously comment. This makes me feel like I'm not doing enough. I'm not even doing better in writing, the only thing which I thought I'm good at.

It takes time for your book to get recognition that's what I keep hearing. It's been one year almost I started writing HSA yet I didn’t cross 100k reads and 10k votes. While some writers gets millions of reads, enough vote within just few months. Then why don't I get it? What's wrong with my books? I'm not jealous of anyone. Do not think like that. But whenever I ask these two question to myself I only find this one answer that it's simple, people don't enjoy my books. Even on Instagram I have 500+ followers yet my reels barely get 100 likes.

I'm struggling with many things in my life atm. Writing and editing is my peace in my chaos world. I feel happy to see people appreciating my work but I feel like this is not enough. No matter what I do or how I try my best to write properly, come up with a unique plot, it's still never enough. It's been one year already then how long I have to wait? Everything is draining me out right now. I want to quit everything. I regret that I started writing. This thing was never meant for a unlucky person like me.

Now I know many people would say that you write for yourself, do it to make yourself happy. Well for that I have my notes where I can write everything and no one would see, I can write them for myself and be happy. I wouldn’t have started writing on wattpad.

For the last few days I continuously have this thought to leave everything. I even thought that I wil just complete writing HSA then I won't write my other books anymore. I will do that now. There is no point of wasting my time on writing.