holding back from you

'have I ever told you how talented you are?'

*two weeks later*

I knotted my hands together nervously as I stood to the left of the stage, being on tour across America is something so special and actually something I never thought we would have the opportunity to achieve. I felt my phone buzz in my pocket, as I slid it out I saw my mum's name written across the screen. I felt my heart stop and sick feeling rise in my chest 'Happy 20th Birthday Bradley. Don't do anything that would disappoint me further today.' I sighed out of relief, somehow I expected something much worse. It was obviously already my birthday back in England but it was very much still July 27th in America and I still felt very much a nervous nineteen year old about to walk on stage. "nervous?" James quizzed as he tilted his head slightly, I nodded in response before my eldest band mate wrapped his arms tightly around me "you'll smash it like always you prat" he sighed before releasing his grip and charging onto the stage. I took a deep inhale of breath before following swiftly.

At this point we had five songs left on our set list as the stage cleared leaving me alone as Tristan wheeled on my piano. I took my seat and began to play Another World, I looked up from the keys and connected my eyes with Tristan who was looking at me beaming and his cheeks glowing a bright shade of red, I felt myself putting more emotion into the song than I ever had before, actually singing every lyric how I felt at the time writing it to Tris, the person the song was actually intended for. As I sung the final note I felt the familiar weight of Tristan dragging myself and the piano from the stage before wrapping his arms around me from a dark spot just off the stage "have I ever told you how talented you are?" he whispered, I laughed nervously before his placed his lips against mine gently but speedily. He dragged me back onto the stage to finish the set. "THANK YOU SILVER SPRING" I yelled before the four of us fled from the stage and pulled into a group hug, "that was fucking amazing!" I shouted as the other three agreed. I headed back to the dressing room when I heard the other three whispering from behind me, I decided to ignore them and hastily left the dressing room and hopped into the black car waiting for us directly outside the venue.

The other three entered the car alongside Joe and Dean within five minutes and the vehicle set into motion, "this isn't the way to the hotel?" I mumbled sleepily receiving laughs from the other five in the car "we have a birthday surprise for you" Joe stated whilst roughing up my already messy curls "it's not my birthday till tomorrow" I whined, Con hit my arm lightly and laughed "well this will lead into your birthday" he said with a wink leaving me confused as to where we are going. About twenty minutes later we pulled up at a large black building, I looked down at my phone screen '23:47pm'. I followed the other five inside as a woman in a red dress with curled blonde hair greeted us "ready for your late night laser tag?" she questioned before leading us into a roomed filled with the equipment "we wanted to do moonlight paintballing but we didn't exactly think Joe, James or Tris would be feeling that right now" Dean said whilst he slipped on his laser tag vest. We were split into two teams by the company, as 'birthday boy' - being called that literally makes this feel like it's my thirteenth birthday party - I was team captain of the green team and Joe was asked to captain the red team. "who do you want to pick first?" the woman asked me, I smiled cheerily at her before my gaze switched to the tall blonde stood in the far corner. "Tristan" I said quickly as my boyfriend picked up a green gun and took his place at my side, he beamed brightly at me making me blush like a lovesick school child but maybe that's because Tristan seems to always have that effect on me. The teams ended up being Myself, Tris and Con against Joe, Dean and James. We were released out the large black doors of the warehouse and into a pitch black forest, I pulled down the goggles that had been handed too us before agreeing to split up. Con ran into the tree's alone and when I went to follow I felt a hand pull against my arm "don't you want to stick together?" he whispered, without waiting for a reply he pulled me in the opposite direction to that of which Connor went.

Tristan led me through masses of trees until we found this small shed like building which he pulled me inside and glanced at the watch on his wrist, "it's midnight" he whispered "happy birthday" he said with a smirk liking at his lips, he pulled on my green vest and pressed our bodies against each others before pushing our lips together. Our mouths danced together in a perfect rhythm and Tris' tongue lead the way as usual. After a few minutes he pulled away from the contact of our mouths but was careful to keep his body as close to mine as possible and in addition rested his forehead against mine, "I hope you like your present" he whispered, I shook my head lightly "I told you not to get me anything" I mumbled which made the older boy chuckle softly "well I did, plus me and the boys have planned the whole day so don't argue" he explained before placing another soft kiss on my lips "now lets go actually play laser tag" he said with a smirk, I entwined my fingers with his before we left the shed and fled into the forest.

After about an hour and a half all six of us gathered together in the warehouse and removed our equipment, "the red team won with sixty three shot to the green teams forty nine shots" the red dressed woman explained before guiding us towards the door. "if you two had spent less time running off to make out then we might have won yano" Connor whispered to me, "come on now we ran off once and weren't gone any longer than like fifteen minutes" I giggled as we hopped back into the car.

We arrived back at the hotel about 2:20am so me and Tris immediately retired to our hotel room, I pulled off my jeans and my grey jumper before slipping into some grey jogging bottoms and getting into bed with Tris who was in his boxers and a black t-shirt. "happy birthday" he whispered "I love you". I wriggled tightly against his body "I love you more" I teased before resting my head lightly on his chest and wrapping my arms around my boyfriends skinny body "I'm not even going to argue with the birthday boy" he sighed before returning my gesture and placing his arms around me. I think it's safe to say that I could happily lie like this forever with Tris and never grow tired of it.