The aftermath pt.2

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by aesthetic3654

by aesthetic3654

February 2022
Leah's POV
I think I've been staring at my phone for a good 5 minutes without reacting. I didn't expect that message, not today or anytime soon, but here I am sat on my sofa still staring at the message. That is, until she sends me another one.

Liv - I know that it might be weird that I've just messaged you like that after not talking at all, but I just want to clarify some things. Could we do that? I'm just 5 min away from yours right now.

As I finish reading it, my fingers react faster than my mind, tapping without thinking my response.

Leah - Sorry for not answering sooner, I was just surprised I guess? But yeah, I'm free to meet up. Are we gonna stay at mine or...?

At the moment that I sent the message I quickly stand up and start pacing the room, waiting for her response. A thousand options and different responses start to pop in my head, thinking of every different way that this could go. While I was overthinking, I hear my phone vibrate, meaning that she's answered. Slowly, I took my phone to read it.

Liv - Actually I was gonna say I would pick you up, if you're okay with that.
Leah - yeah, no problem
Liv - okay, then I'll be there in five
Leah - okay

As the conversation ends, I just sit down to process this, because even though I've been waiting for Olivia to be ready to talk to me, right now I don't even know what and how I will tell her everything I want without saying anything wrong. However, as I start thinking on what to say, the worst possibility crosses my mind: Maybe she wants to fully break up? At that thought, my heart broke a little, to the point that I could feel tears starting to form in my eyes. But before I could think on worse situations, I see her message telling me she's outside. So I try to breathe in, in order to calm myself down, I grab my jacket and my keys, and as I'm on my way to open my door, I just think that everything will be okay because if not, I could break down right now. So with that, I leave mine, and look for her car, which didn't take me long since she was parked right in front of me; so with a small smile I wave at her and get in her car.

"Hi" I greet her softly

"Hi" she says with a small smile

And just like that she starts the car and begins to drive somewhere.

The drive was not long, it was barely 15 minutes, and as soon as she was getting to the destination, I saw the place. The place that seems to be our spot whenever we need to have a serious conversation, the spot where we talk about anything, the spot where we first met after she came back, and the spot that as it seems now, it will be where everything could go well or where it could all break down.

During the ride, we didn't speak that much either, just the occasional 'how you've been' and that stuff, but nothing more, which made it a little awkward. However, as Olivia was parking, I began thinking what she was gonna tell me, or how would I react to whatever she has in mind. And since I was too deep in my thoughts, Olivia had to snap her fingers in front of me to get my attention.

"Leah? everything okay?" She asks me, and if only she knew that all I'm thinking is every possibility of how wrong this can go. But I try to seem calm and nonchalantly I just answer "yeah, should we go?" to what she just nods and get off the car.

Going to the bench was familiar, not the first time we've been here, and hopefully not the last time. Silence fills the air between us, just the sound of some birds and the cars that sometime pass by. So when we get there, we both sit but none of us say anything. Awkwardness is the word to describe the situation, but I mean, she was the one to text me, so she should be the one to start, right? And just as I thought of that she breaks the silence.

"Ehem... Um I'll just say it as it is" well, there it goes. "So, I talked with Jordan. Actually, I literally just did that, right before coming to yours" she chuckles slightly. Whereas me, I think she got from my face how unexpected that was. "I know, I didn't expect that either, but after... well, everything and talking with my people" ouch, my people, and I was not one of them at the time "I came to the conclusion that if I wanted to forget and forgive you, then I needed to talk with Jordan first, and that's what I did today" she then stops, to what I suppose waiting for me to give her any reaction. But I did not react at all, I was just staring at the park in front of me, thinking that whatever Jordan has told her, maybe it was not true, maybe she tried to leave as the bad one here.

"And what exactly has she told you?" I asked without any emotion

"well... nothing bad" she says, and at that moment I let out a sigh of relief that I didn't know I was holding. "I had to admit, that at first I was not nice to her but I immediately felt bad afterwards, but at that moment I was too angry to think about anything really. But um, well I directly asked her that 'what was she thinking when she kissed you?' and that I could not forgive her for now-"

"Have you forgiven me?" I interrupt her, but I need to know that, because I want her back, she's it for me, and I cannot give up on having her back with me, I won't.

"I uh..." she exhales "Not yet Leah, I'm in the process in doing so. As I said before, I needed forst to listen to Jordan and what she needed to say, and now that that part is done, I'm in the process of forgiving you. Jordan has already told me how sorry she was, and before you say anything, I know you are too, and you regret it as much as she does. I don't want to cause more problems between us, Jordan's response to my answer was that since you two were spending a lot of time together because of her injury, old feeling came back and well she let herself go with those feelings, and she also told me that you did not kiss back and how you were so upset with her after what happened. But what disappointed me and got me angry was how you lied to me Le" At that point I could not hold back my tears anymore, she called me Le. It might sound stupid, but with that I know how she feels about me.

"Liv, I'm- " I sniffle, at this point I was full crying, and I felt Olivia hugging me, trying to comfort me. Once I calmed down, I tried to speak in the most clear way possible "Liv, I'm so sorry that I lied to you about being busy, I have no excuse for that and neither for not telling you sooner about the kiss. But please, you need to know that I was not doing it because I had anything to hide, I just thought that maybe it would feel wrong or that it was not that important, but I admit my mistake and I can only say that I'm sorry for that" I say softly "Olivia, I'm gonna do anything for you to forgive me, I don't care about anything more than you being by my side, I love you."

Olivia's POV

Hearing those words after everything, hit me hard, to the point that both of us were crying. Holding hands trying to seek comfort in each other. Thank goodness that almost nobody usually walked around here, because out of context people would think we're two people out of our minds our something. But as we were both recovering, I lean my head on her shoulder, and give it a small kiss, which is a small action but that it means a lot.

"I know that Le, and you should know that I've never stopped loving you, okay?" I say between sobs "I'm still in love with you, you're the one I want to be with, but right now I think we both need some space, we will be back, but first we need to heal, to be ourselves again. I need you to gain my trust again, but that doesn't mean we need to separated, we will be there for each other supporting each other, always, don't doubt that" I say

"Okay" she whispers "If that what it takes me to be back, I'll accept it, I'll gain your trust back, little by little" she says.

And with those final words, we stay there for a little bit more, just holding each other, comforting each other, until we both see that it was time for each one of us to go their respective home and begin our way to heal this temporary wound. I know we will be back and stronger, but the way to the that might be harder than what we both would want.

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A/N: okay, it might be shitty and maybe too short, but I tried to do my best, I know it's been a month and a half since the last update but I didn't know how to write it, however I'll try my best to continue with this, be patient. I assure you I'll finish the book, but I need time and summer to come already so that I finish uni cause it's consuming me.