58. Overcoming Fear

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I yawn, walking back to our room after a late-night video call with my team

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I yawn, walking back to our room after a late-night video call with my team. The time difference sucks. And I am feeling too damn sleepy. I am not a robot but recently,y I feel like one.

My sleep schedule is fucked. I don't know how Meera even operates everything while I am being slothful and inactive all day.

Slowly closing the door of our private villa I tiptoe in our room and close the door as slowly as possible. I can see the countless stars shining in the clear night sky through the glass wall.

We didn't go to see the sunset anywhere else today just sat outside on the porch area to see the sunset in the wild. Never knew Africa could be so fun and peaceful.

I slide back near Meera after taking off my sweatpants, not touching her. Even if I want to pull her closer and hug her while I sleep, she might wake up. She is a light sleeper, unlike me, and is always on high alert even in her sleep.

I tried to decipher a sequence regarding her nightmares but failed miserably. She can go three or even four days without her nightmares and at the same time get them for four days straight.

I don't want to sleep in case she is having a bad time right next to me.

But at least she isn't scared to fall asleep. Just after a few days, I witnessed her nightmares for the first time. I replaced her sleeping pills and the one she takes after her nightmares. Those so-called anxiety pills. And replaced them with vitamins and mineral tablets that I made sure look similar.

She is trying to take less of those, but in reality,, it was all in her mind. Her problem is more psychological. She thinks if she pops a pill in the car or during a painc attack, it will instantly calm her, but they are just slowly harming her body by bringing her heart rate down. If she overdoses, she might have a heart attack.

I couldn't let that happen.

As I said it was all in her mind. Now she takes the tablets I replaced and calms down.

The second day, when she had a nightmare after our wedding, she couldn't breathe, and just so that I wouldn't see her or wake up, she hid herself in the closet, hurting herself in the way to get away from me.

It took Me a few days to convince her not to push me away. But even now, she'll try to hold her ground; hence, I try to pull an all-nighter in case she needs me. I was doing that even when we were living in the penthouse. But I know half of the days she wasn't even sleeping just so that I don't see her in that condition again.

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