'Hey look at me, look at me. Newt. You saved me. You can't be around me all the time. You aren't responsible for this.' He looked at me. 'Do you understand? You were in the pit because you hit Ste.. well.. him and saved me.' I couldn't even pronounce his name.
He nodded.
'I'm fine now.' I said. I was lying. Everytime I blinked the horrible memories flew back.
'No, your not fine.' He said. He rubbed his tears away. 'What did he do to you?'
'I can't...' I couldn't relive all that?
'Yes you can... I... I need to know. You need someone who knows, too. I can help you.'
He was right. How could I get over it if I didn't talk to someone? I trusted Newt. He could help me.
'Okay... I trust you...' I told him and smiled. Then I started telling my story, through sobs. I felt so ashamed and disgusting... but I somehow knew I could trust Newt. He listened carefully to everything I had to say. By the time I was done he was crying to. It was sort of liberating, telling it to someone else. Letting it out.
'I'm so sorry that happened to you. I would never do anything to hurt you. When you were out, I was thinking about things I would say to you when you were awake. I would say this...' he told me, 'I know we just met, and that this is probably ridiculous, but I know this more certain than anything. I bloody love you.' He squeezed my hand.
The butterflies in my stomach were now killing me, I was also afraid to kiss him because of the horrible memories... but I didn't care anymore. All that mattered was Newt. Everything else flew away.
'I love you, too.' I said, and then he leaned in and gave me a sweet, short kiss on my lips. I looked at his face and he stared in my eyes. His hand held my face and I kissed him again. This time harder, and he hesitated at first but then he kissed me back. It was a kiss full of passion. I granted him permission to explore my mouth and so were kissing for something that seemed like forever.
Then the horrible memories flew back in. I stopped them, still kissing Newt. This was Newt, not Steven. I told myself. I can trust him. He would never do anything to hurt me.
When we finally let go I felt a tear streaming down my face. He stroked it away and sat down in his chair again, taking my hand. While stroking my hand he said, with a mocking voice ,'You have to rest.'
I sighed. 'Newt?'
'Yes love?'
'Will you please stay here, for a while?'
'Ofcourse I will.'
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Lost without you × Newt × A Maze Runner fanfiction
Fiksi PenggemarRosalie wakes up in the box just like everybody else. She can't remember anything from here past, just like everybody else. The only difference is, she's a girl. In the glade, she feels attracted to a boy named Newt. But Newt and Rosalie might nee...
