Lost without you × Newt × A Maze Runner fanfiction

Chapter 35

I was in a white room with almost no furnature, only a wooden desk. A man sat behind it.

I stood next to Newt in front of the desk. We held hands.

'You are a threath to the whole system. Your so called "love" confuses your intire killzone patterns. The results are not clear enough. This has to change. We have to make a few changes in your brain compartement we have acces to, before we send the boy to the maze. Do you understand this?' The man spoke.

I thought about this. I could never not love Newt, he was like a  part of me. I couldn't bare the thought of seeing him, whithout the butterflies in my stomach, whithout the need to kiss him or even talk to him, laugh with him about a silly joke. That just wasn't possible, and yet, this man was telling us he could do that. That he would do that, but I wouldn't let him. I couldn't.

'No I don't understand. It's all just bullshit. We've done everything for you and we can't just be happy for one second?' I said, my voice sounded angry.

'It's not about happiness. You can't be this selfish, it's about the intire human race, young lady.'

Newt squeezed my hand and whispered in my ear 'Maybe he's right. If it's for the best...'

'Listen to your boyfriend, Rosalie.' The mans voice was calm.

My head spinned.
'No! I'm sorry, but I won't because it isn't for the best, programming not to love each other.' I said to Newt, almost yelling. I immediatly regret yelling at him but how could he agree to this? I turned my face towards the man behind the desk and added, 'It's just wrong. I'm sorry for being this selfish but I just can't give this up. This is all I got.' Tears were streaming down my face. Newt wrapped his arm around me. His eyes were wet. 'I know, Rose, I know...' He sighed and looked down at his feet.

'Honestly when you do this I will kill myself. You can't use me when I'm dead. So just... don't... do... this!' I was screaming this now, with insanity in my voice.

'What... No, please don't, Rosalie! No! Do you hear me? Don't even think about it.' Newts voice was shaky, he was crying now, too.

'I'll do it.' I threatened.

The man behind the desk looked down. His face was in a grimace.

'John! Come in here!' He yelled.

A man in a white uniform walked through the door and took my arm, pulling me away from the room.
'No! Newt! Don't let go!'

'I love you!'

I held his hand thight.
The man was too strong so eventually she succeeded to pull me away from Newt, leaving him alone in the room with the man behind the desk, his facial expression startled and he was crying.

'I'm so sorry.' Were the last words I heared.

I felt a sting in my arm and the world faded away.