Lost without you × Newt × A Maze Runner fanfiction

Chapter 42

'So I have a plan.' Newt said. 'Gally trusts me and Minho, sorry Rose, I don't think he trusts you. He'd rather see you locked up as well but he knows he has to deal with me when he does that.'

'None taken. What's your plan?' I answered.

Newt glanced at me, smiled and said 'Right. He trusts us so we have to make sure we have weapons in our hands when it happends. We let you guys escape, ask people to come with us and leave. Just like that. Chuck,' he looked over at the boy, 'prepare a bag with water, food and weapons. Make sure nobody sees you.'

Chuck nodded and walked away.

'That actually sounds like a pretty good plan.' Minho said, with a surprised voice.

'Yeah.' Thomas agreed.

'Okay, we'll prepare ourselves. See you guys in a bit.' Newt said, looking at Thomas and Teresa.

We walked towards the homestead. Minho left to his room, and Newt and I went to our room. Our room wasn't destroyed. It had remained unharmed, luckily enough.

Newt sat down on his bed and sighed. He looked down, at his feet.

'Are you okay?' I asked him, and sat down next to him. I placed my hands on his shoulders and began massaging him. His body was tensed.

'I'm okay.' He answered, still looking at his feet. I knew he was lying, but I couldn't do anything to make him feel any less shit then he did now. I knew talking about it would help, but if he didn't want to...
So I massaged his shoulders, making him relax a bit. 'I'm so sorry about Ally, Newt...' I whispered breathless.

Newt nodded once and sighed. 'You know what the last thing was I said to him?' He spoke, his voice sounded sore like he'd been crying all day.

'No... tell me.' I whispered.

''I won't let go.' That's a bloody lame last thing to say to someone, isn't it?'

I stopped massaging his shoulders, and put my hand on his cheek. I pushed his face up so I could see it. He looked at me, and I saw he was crying now.
'I held his hand, while the Griever tried to pull him away from me... I said I wouldn't let go and he kept telling me to get the rest out of here, that it was okay..
I... I said I wouldn't let go of him again and then the Griever pulled him away from me. It's my fault, I tried to keep him here but I couldn't. I hate that I couldn't... save him.'

'That sounds horrible.' I said, 'But Newt, it wasn't your fault. It could never be your fault. Alby knew that, I know he did. I know it, too.'

'Stop defending me! You always do.' Newt said, he sounded a bit angry.

'Stop blaming yourself for everything!' I answered angry, adding, more softly this time, 'Not everything is your fault.'

Newt looked at the ground again and then he quikly moved forward and kissed me. I granted him permission in my mouth and I could feel his tongue going from one side to the other. He tasted sweet. I closed my eyes and leaned forward, I took his face in my hands and stroked it slowly.

When we let go, I asked him whispering 'Why did you do that?'

'I needed it. You were probably right and I was wrong, I'm sorry. You see the good in me and I love that. Alby's... death... wasn't my fault. I just hate that I couldn't safe him.'

'No it wasn't...'

Newt gave me a kiss on my forehead. 'Come on, let's change. Put a couple of knifes in your pockets. They lay under the bed. I'd put them there after the accident with Steven.'

I glanced at him. 'You are full of surprises. Ofcourse you have.' I smiled and dugged to look under the bed. I saw a backpack, so I took it. It was filled with knifes.

'Why so many? Were you going to murder al the boys that even look at me or something?' I joked.

'I thought it might come in handy one day. And it did.' Newt smiled.

'Yeah.'
I put my clothes off, and threw it in a corner. I was completly naked now, but I didn't care. I turned around and saw Newt glancing at me. He was shirtless, too. He hadn't seen me completly naked before.
'I didn't just see that, I was... euh... occupied.' He said, looking to the ground. 'Okay maybe I did. Sorry. But wow... you look good.'

I walked over and him and put my arms around him. I placed a kiss on his cheek 'Thanks.'

I walked over and took underwear out of a box. I quickly put them on, and took a shirt and pants out of the box as well. I put my clothes on and grabbed a couple of knifes. Two in my left pocket, two in my right, two in my left back pocket, two in my right back pocket and one between my lower back and pants.

I saw that Newt was still watching me from the corner of my eyes.
He saw that I saw him so he quickly put some clothes on and put knifes in his pockets.

'Let's go.' He said, took my hand and squeezed it. We walked towards the East Door together.