Lost without you × Newt × A Maze Runner fanfiction

Chapter 37

I saw Newt standing against the tree, with his eyes closed. His face was facing the sun, which was shining bright. The contours of his face were even more beautiful as usual in this prospect.
I sneaked up on him and stood behind a tree to watch him. God he was beautiful. What a perfect moment on a perfect day.
'Hey.' I said quietly.

Newt opened his eyes, and glanced at me sideways. 'Hey, I didn't know you were back again. Wait... What happend?' He was looking at my wound.

I smiled 'It's nothing. We found something. We believe it's where the Grievers go during the day, and it might be our way out.'

'Are you serious?' He asked, with disbelieve and he began smiling. He pulled me in a warm hug. 'That's just amazing.' He let go of me and looked at my wound, with concerned eyes. 'You sure you are okay, though?'

'Yeah. What were you just thinking about? You seemed far away from here.' I answered.

'About you.'

'Yeah, right.' I rolled my eyes.

'I was.' He chuckled. 'Whoa, I can't believe you guys found a way out of this place.'

'Yeah, me neither. It's so weird for me, too, even though I've only been here for like what, two weeks? I can't even think how it must be for you since you've been here for 2 years.'

'Yeah...' He stared to his feet.

'You are happy though, right?' I asked him. He seemed a bit off.

'Yeah, it's not that, I just had a nightmare when I fell asleep this midday so I'm just tired. '

I sat down on the ground. He followed me. 'Tell me about it.' I said.

'It's nothing...' He glanced at me, and sat down next to me. He pulled grass out of the ground and threw it away. He seemed a bit tensed.

'I don't care, let me be here for you. I trouble you with all my problems and drama's and I want you to do the same thing.'

'No, you don't. But okay...' He began. 'I dreamed I strangled you again but this time I succeeded. You died... I was the one who put a cross through your name and- '
I put my fingers on his lips.
'It was just a dream.' I said, almost whispering.

'Yeah, I know.' He glanced at me and I saw his eyes were filled with tears. 'I'm so sorry. I will never hurt you again.' He stroked the bruises on my neck, they still hadn't healed completly.

'I know you won't, I don't blame you. I just want you to be able to forgive yourself. You have to remember it wasn't really you.'

'Yeah but I remember it. I could see your face, you were trying to breathe so your face was even paler than you are now. You were crying, but you didn't do anything, you just lay there, trying to breathe. You didn't fight back. Why?'

'I don't know. I didn't want to hurt you and I was in some kind of shock... It was weird.' Memories of Newt's emotionless face flew back, the pain of not being able to breathe ... I didn't want to think about this.

Newt stroked my hair behind my ear and smiled 'I'm happy I have you. I'm so sorry. I would never do anything to hurt you again.'

I smiled 'I love you.'
I placed my hands on his cheeks and kissed him. He smiled in the kiss so I looked up at his eyes. 'I love you too' He said, and he kissed me again. We kissed like that for a while.
Then I let go of him.

'Can we grab some food now?' I asked him still holding his face in my hands. 'It's been a long and intresting day and I'm starving. Plus, I have to have some kind of bandage before it's going to be infected or anything.'

'Okay.'
We walked to the homestead while we held hands. I stroked his hand with my thumb.