one week later
Nothing has changed. I still felt bad jack had to take care of me all the time, Ive even heard him canceling plans for a trip to the Alps. Why was he doing this? I broke up with him, he should be upset with me. Not dropping everything to take care of me. "Lanny come on we need to go." He was referring to my doctors appointment i had today. I walked out and painfully quickly jumped in his car. He ran out and over to the car. "Lanny why would you do that? I could have helped you!" I turned my focus out the front windshield of the car. "Jack I'm fine, lets go." He slammed my door obviously frustrated at me. He got in mumbling things to himself. "Look Jack I'm not fucking four years old, i can get in a car!" I spat at him. He griped the steering wheel tightly and started the car without response. We drove in complete salience to the doctors office.
We got out and walked in and Jack checked me in and we waited. I felt my phone vibrate in my pocket.
From: Jack</3 :
"Whats been going on with you?"
I turned to him sitting next to me and he shrugged. I put the phone in my pocket and stared at the blank wall in front of me. "Lanny we-" Jack was cut off. "LANNY?" the nurse yelled. i stood up and jack stood. i looked up at him "I can do this alone." And walked into the office alone. He just did and x-ray and asked me a few questions. He said it was healing past schedule and i should be fine in a month, but i have another appointment next week. i nodded and walked out to be greeted by a sleeping jack sitting in the same position. I smiled because he sleeps like the idiot he is. Mouth slightly open a little drool coming out. I walked over and kicked his leg. He jumped up and looked at me then wiped the spit off his chin. "I'm done. Lets go!" He nodded and we walked to the car, got in and drove home.
We walked in and i went st right for the bedroom so i could lay down. "Lanny wait!" jack said standing in front of the door. "Yea?" He then took a deep breath. "Whats been going on with you lately?" I shook my head and tried walking away. "LANNY WAIT!" I turned to him "LEAVE ME ALONE JACK!" I shouted at him. "TELL ME WHATS WRONG!" He yelled back. I walked up to him and got in his face and dug my index finger in his chest. "YOU WANT TO KNOW WHATS WRONG? YOUR TAKING CARE OF ME! YOU FORGET ABOUT ME THEN WANT TO TAKE OF ME? THEN YOU GO AROUND DROPPING EVERYTHING FOR ME, I HEARD YOU CANCEL THE ALPS TRIP! I FEEL SO GUILTY JACK! STOP BEING SO FUCKING NICE TO ME! I HURT YOU! YELL AT ME, DO SOMETHING! BUT STOP TREATING ME LIKE I'M PERFECT BECAUSE I'M NOT! I'M ALL BRUISED AND CUT UP, I LOOK LIKE ABSOLUTE SHIT! KNOWING YOUR DOING EVERYTHING FOR SOMEONE LIKE ME IT HURTS SO MUCH!"
Tears where streaming down my face and we looked each other in the eyes. One tear left his eye but he wiped it away. He knocked my hand off his chest and crossed his arms. "Lanny. I feel so guilty for so may things. one is not talking to you as often i should have. I just couldn't take talking to you knowing i couldn't hold you in my arms. I never once forgot about you, you were the only thing on my mind. And yes i canceled the Alps trip because of you, but i would drop everything for you Lanny. And yea you hurt me but like i told you, you were happy or so i thought. That's all that mattress to me, your happiness." He grabbed both of my hands and looked down at them. "Lanny you are perfect. Everything single thing about is. I don't care about the little bruise and cuts that awful coward left on you, that's not you. You are funny, smart, kind, and beautiful." I tried pulling my hands away but he had a firm grip on them. "Don't leave me again?" i head his voice crack.
I yanked my hands from his and stood there. "i would hug but it would hurt to much." "Lanny i s-" I shook my head no. "No it would hurt my ribs, not me." i saw a smile grow on his face. He gently wrapped me into a hug and kissed my cheek. I felt like now was the time to tell him. "Jack i-"
knock knock
Jack walked over to the door and opened it. There stood Amanda in all glory. "Jack you left you hoodie at my place two weeks ago." She handed him his hoodie and kissed his cheek and left. He shut the door and turned to me. "Look you w-" I cut him off and walked over to him. "So you thought about me everyday? I never left your mind?" Jack looked around room avoiding eye contact. I grabbed his chin and made him look at me. "I did think about you everyday. but i thought you and Chuck were happy so i thought i had to move on too." I let go and looked at the ground. "I understand." He grabbed my chin and lifted my head. "I'm not going to stay with her, i want you." He leaned in a pressed his lips to mine. We pulled apart and i looked in his gorgeous green eyes "Jack i love you."
