Don't leave...We need you (5SOS Ashton Irwin) *COMPLETED, EDITING*

13: Don't tell.

13: Don't tell.

*Ashtons POV*

I feel terrible for Becca. She thinks it's her fault because she put Leo in the top bunk, but she wasn't to know he was going to fall! No one else blames her only herself.

At the moment we are watching some stupid programme on TV and Becca is having a shower. God I hope she doesn't cut. Leos operation takes about 7 hours as it's quite major, we are going to the hospital after the concert so we can be there when his operation is finished. Whether he will still be unconscious or not is still unclear the doctor said. Apparently he could be in a coma for up to 3 months! As if the head trauma isn't bad enough, and that's only if he survives the surgery.

I need the loo so I get up off the couch and walk upstairs to the bathroom. I knock as the door is closed. Theres no answer so I just open the door.

I nearly have a heartattack from what I see. Becca is lying on the floor unconscious.

"Becca, Becca?" I call shaking her. I begin to panic as she doesn't wake up. Not two in one day!

That is when I catch sight of the half empty pill bottle lying next to her on the floor. Before I even know what I am doing I drag Becca over to the loo before pushing two of my fingers down her throat and making her throw up. I look inside the loo at her puke seeing about a dozen pills mixed with...other stuff. I am so shocked. I never thought...it was serious enough for her to do that.

"Becca, Becca" I call out tapping her face trying to wake her up. I cradle her in my lap before slapping her gently on the cheek. Still nothing. I would never actually hit a girl but this calls for desperate measures. I slap her cheek harder flinching as I do so. Luckily it does the trick.

Her eyes fly open and tears begin tumbling down my cheeks.

"Becca don't you dare do that again" I begin sobbing and I hug her to me.

"What? How?" She asks her voice hoarse.

"Becca I made you throw up the pills. I wasn't just going to let you die!" I begin sobbing.

What Becca does next shocks me. She hugs me back and whispers in my ear. "I'm so sorry...I didn't mean to. Its just I-"

"Just never do it again. Please!" I sob.

"OK" She whispers back.

 I finally pull myself together and get up from the floor still cradling Becca. I carry her to her bed and tuck her. I turn to walk back to the bathroom to clean up when Becca pulls on my hand. I turn back round to face her.

"Please don't tell" She whispers. I nod.

"Just promise me you won't try...again"

She nods in reply. The nod doesn't make me believe her though. She said she wouldn't cut let alone try to commit suicide, so I'm not gonna believe a nod. I don't think shes lying I just don't think she can control her actions or control her lies.

I try to imagine life in her shoes. No parents and the dedication of looking after Leo. She has had to grow up 10 times faster than everyone else, and she does such a good job at looking after Leo yet she gets bullied about what she does because shes different.

Then theres me. The person who if so incredibly lucky to be where I am and I happen to stumble accross Becca and how amazing she is yet I find out about her problems. I want to help her and I will.

The first step is to take anything she could self harm herself with away. It sounds mean as she relys on it so much but I am hoping that maybe she will go out somewhere with me and we could have fun and I could make her feel happy so she doesn't feel the need to cut.