broken and brusied(warrior)

29.

Dear diary.
They say pain passes over time, but does it, does it really?
Do we just get better at hiding it?

It gets easier to fake a smile, to say I'm fine when I'm breaking inside.

There voices, of what they called me,
"Sket"
"Whore" "worthless" "nobody" and what they did to me, gives me nightmares. I ran away to get rid of them, but they haunt me.

I've only got one choice left, to get rid of everything I feel inside, everything that hurts. All the pain that hurts me.

The scars on my body, tell a story yet nobody will ever hear them, because I don't let people in. Why? Because I've been messed about so many times before.

It seems like the way to get rid of everything bad in my life, it to kill myself.

Night x

****

"Have you lost weight?" Danny randomly asks.

Were sitting at are usual spot for lunch, at school. Doing the same reunite. My lunch sits unwrapped in front of me, I silp on a bottle of water whereas Danny wolf downs he's lunch, then eats mine. I guess it saves me from eaxplaing to Mum why I haven't eatten it.

"Samantha??" Danny's voice drags me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah? What?" I reply.

" I asked if you lost weight"

Shit hes noticed. Yes I have been losing weight. I stoped eatting lunch and dinner last week, breakfast wasn't a problem I never eat it anyways.

I chew gum or smoke to take the carving Away.

"No I haven't" i lie, "what makes you think I have?" I question.

" you look I'll, and your cheek bones are starting to show. Are you sure you haven't lost weight? "

"Yes I'm sure" I fake a smile. But Danny doesn't seem convinced.

****

Danny's pov...

"I dunno man, she looks extremely unhealthy. She's lost weight drastically. She's smelling of smoke," I say to Aeden on the other end of the line.

'I haven't got a clue what could be wrong with her, coz whenever me and her talk she seems fine"

Yes I betrayed Sams trust, but Aedens my best friend meaning there's no lies besides he asked me to keep an eye on her and keep him updated and that's what im doing.

"I'll look into bro" I say weakly. Knowing that when Sam finds out she'll kill me.

"Thanks man" Aeden says. And hangs up the phone.

I get Sam's diary type thing, out my bag. She dropped it eailer so I helped pick up her books, I noitced scars on her wrist, but didn't mention anything.

She couldn't be selfharming could she?

So one I noitced it was her diary I put in my bag. I have to find out what's going with her. For aedens sake.

I debate about weather to read it or not but curiosity gets the better of me, so I open it to second to last entry.

Dear dairy,
I don't want to live I want to die. What's the point of living if your just miserable.

Oh shit I think to myself.

Ways to kill yourself it reads.

1. Hanng yourself with a rope or something stronger.

2. Get a gun and shot.

3. Jump of a bridge.

4. Starve.

I snap the book shut, reliseing that Sam is beginning to go a head a kl herself.

I need to stop her.

I need to do something, but what??

A,n what you think???

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The story is near the end. Will finsh it when I get back form my holiday.

Have a lovely week.