playboy diaries : c.h

6: ditched

clarice anderson.

Calum Hood is kissing me.

I don't know what crossed my mind but I felt the need to kiss him back. So, I did. His plump lips molded perfectly with mine. It was really a heated session when he decided to push me and part our lips. He got out of my car and I harshly opened my door to follow him, a confused look in my face. I breathed deeply as he stopped in their front porch.

"What was that about?" I asked him, angriness filling my veins. "What? The kiss?" He devilishly laughed at my fucking face. I just stared at him. "The kiss is just a trick. We're friends, and don't act like I have feelings for you." With that he walked in their house, not caring about me as if like we didn't hang-out a while ago.

A tear rolled down my cheeks, slightly being pink because of the cold weather. It's gloomy and anytime today, the rain will just pour down. A heavy weight was on my shoulder. I have never been into this situation, and it hurted like goddamn hell. I was ditched just by a fucking kiss.

I decided to just brush it off and went back to my car. I feel empty. Having those boys in my life will just be a complete mess.

But then, I remembered my birthday. It's just two weeks away. I just wished that I would be able to distract myself for preparing stuff and shit. I just wish that I could forget about the kiss that happened minutes ago.

I took one last glance at Calum's house and decided to pull away. I didn't know where to go because home for me is not my safest place. So, I decided to go to the mall and buy nothing but unbearable bears, just to make my soft side alive. The drive to the mall was easy just as I thought. I grabbed my purse and black hoodie, making sure that the cold will just be numb for me.

The mall wasn't crowded, because it's a gloomy Monday afternoon and most of the people are at their habitats, not wanting to go out and have some time for themselves. For me, that's the most boring session I will ever encounter in my life. My phone rang loudly and I got a few stares from the people around me. I sheepishly smiled at them, tugging my phone in my ear and sighed. "Hello?" Crap. I didn't look at the number.

Nice one, Clarice.

At first, no one answered. I attempted to speak again but the voice was husky and it made me cringe. "Clarice? Is this you?" The voice said. I shook my head and focused on who is this caller. "Y-yeah, it's me. Who are you?" I said bluntly as I entered the store I really liked. I grabbed a bear and rumaged through some of them, still having my phone in my ear.

The voice was again, gone. I was about to drop the call when I heared a few sobs across the line.

"Are you okay? Hey, I didn't mean to make you cry." I said, biting my lower lip. "Who are you?" I asked once again.

"It's Luke." I sighed in relief. I thought this was a stranger who dialled some random number to prank me. I coughed lightly. "What's up, Luke? And, why are you crying?" I asked as I payed for the bear I picked. I went out of the store and went to Starbucks to get coffee for two. I might want to drop one at Luke's house.

Luke didn't answered and just dropped the call. I didn't hesitate to go to his house because as far as I now, I'm his friend. Considering that I'm this big "assuming" girl who puts labels on things right away. I'm just a happy-go-lucky person at the moment.

Time ticks by and I can't get Luke, sobbing out of my freaking mind. I was confused. Confused that something bad happened or something good happened to him. I mentally slapped myself. Why will someone cry for something good that happened?

Fucking common sense, Clarice.

Unless it's something that's worth crying for like tears of joy, well it suits the situation. But, hell. I can't really get him off my mind. I walked through the parking lot and stuffed the coffee in the passenger's seat in front. Moments from a while ago flashed in my mind again.

Damn you, Calum Hood.

I started the engine and carefully pulled away. In the free road, I grabbed my phone and searched for Luke's number. I hurriedly texted him.

To: Luke
Message: I'm on my way. Just wait for me, we can talk about it.

I hit send and the coffee cup attracted my attention. It was plain white and an idea popped out of my head. I crack up a smile and hurriedly parked at an empty space where the cars won't get distracted. I grabbed my Sharpie and wrote few words of my so-called "wisdom" and funny things in it, just to make Luke smile. I held up my work and took a photo of it. It simply said:

Don't be sad. The world is a cruel place but crack up a smile and everything's going to be okay. :)

I went back to driving and what a day. I was caught up with traffic. Nice fucking job.

I angrily tapped my steering wheel as the red light faded and green light was on. I drived like no one sees me and hurriedly swerved like no other. I just crossed my fingers and hoped that the police officers didn't see me drive like that.

I'm such a naughty girl.

I arrived safely at Luke's house and I hope that Luke is okay and has stopped crying. I hurriedly jumped off my seat and grabbed the coffee I bought. It was raining a bit and goodness, it was a beautiful scene.

Puffs of air was coming out of my mouth as I knocked at the door. After three knocks, a beautiful woman appeared in front of me. I bet this is Luke's mum.

"Hello, beautiful lady. What are you doing in this time of day and it's raining!" She said cheerfully at me. I smiled. "Hi. Uhm, I was just wondering if Luke is here? I mean, yeah it's his house. I just want to see him, though." My cheeks are tinted pink right now because of embarrassment. The lady made me come inside.

"Don't be silly. I'm just Luke's mum and yes he is upstairs. Locked up in his room again. I suppose you're Luke's girlfri-" I cutted her off with a light cough. "I'm just his friend, actually. My name's Clarice Anderson and thank you for welcoming me, Mrs. Hemmings." I smiled sweetly at her. She patted my shoulder and smiled. "Oh, don't call me Mrs. Hemmings, too formal. Just call me Liz."

After a few talks, Liz went out of the room to make some cookies and I made my way up to Luke's room. It was visible because I can hear sniffles around. And in my calculations, he hadn't stopped crying yet. I knocked in his room lightly. "Luke? It's me, Clarice." I said, and the door opened up softly, a crying Luke welcoming me and gesturing me inside. I shut the door lightly and placed the coffee in his study table.

"Hey." I rubbed his back. "Why are you crying?" He didn't respond. Instead, he hugged me tight, my bones are crashing like crazy in my head. I hugged him back, making sure that he's safe and with that, he stopped crying.

He muttered a word, which I cannot understand fully. "What is it, Luke?" I asked. He turned to face me.

"Please, don't leave me."

And with that, I hugged him back again with tears brimming in my eyes.

Maybe in this way, I'll forget about Calum that ditched me after what happened.

I just wish it would.

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luke and clarice? *coughs* omg *coughs* and calum ditched her because of the kiss!? that was bound to happen. *evil laugh* no, i won't bite. i'm just a weird person and please don't hate me. it's also calum's plan to do that.

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yas, i'm excited and i hope you are too. have a nice day ahead and i love you!! :))